Monday, July 31, 2017

Sugar Rush

Have you ever heard a quote of "a best friend is the one who said yes for everything..". I dont know how exactly the quote, but it's kind of similar to its meaning.

So that's how we are.

Roadtrip? Yes!

Movie? Yes!

Karok? Yes!

Solat! Yes!

Makan? Double yessss!!!!! 

Always do something out of plan. We went out to somewhere and i just wearing a cardigan with selipar Jepun and flip flip my shawl because my role was only staying in the car, so that my friend dont have to pay for parking park. Clever. On the way driving home, Jaja just "Are you hungry Noni? I know you are hungry...lets go for the dessert?" Dessert amende aku ni dinner pun belum *rolling eyes*

"Haaa? Where are we going?" "Sugar Rush!,nah take my phone and waze for it"

Hello? I'm not even agreed yet.

So that was how i went there. "Oh i knew this place, it is an expensive place, i just only wear selipar Jepun, is it alright? "Ahh, who cares"

Im not into sweet dessert, except for chocolate! I go crazy for chocolate! But if you want me to choose, i will choose fried chicken over this sweet food. But the environment is kinda good for a date. Ops. 

Waffer RM6 + Strawberry Ice Cream Rm3 + Unicorn Sprinkle Topping Rm1

Lalalalalalalala bye.

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Weekend's Class

Assalamualaikum.

Happy weekend everyone!

I have no eating-invitation for this weekend as Raya is finally over. So l'm making a plan to jog and taking a fresh breath at the park in the morning of beautiful Saturday. And Sunday with a longer sleep! Ya, I already planned which shirt to wear. I'm determined to get rid of these Raya's fat! My stomach grows bigger!!

But, a few days before weekday is over, I got a text. From my tutor.

"Salam, Macam mana dengan kelas kita? :) "

Ohmaigad, seriously i am totally forgot bout the class. And I cant say no! I already taking a long break - okay, lets blame my unstable period for this. I should go. It's in a high of priority list. So, I say yes. Ain't I am good? *smile politely*

So, here I am today and just forget about the jogging and lake!

Get prepare in the car.
Alhamdulillah I read 15 pages today.


I think I make a good decision bout taking this class even the fee is a lil bit high. But I have no choice. I've reciting the holy love letter with so many wrong tajwid. I cant just close my eyes and patting myself it's okay dear it's okay, keep reading...No, I have to make it right!


Okay, I think I should close this blogspot window by now cause I'm in the office now trying need to finished a lot of pending works. Till then.

Kacang Pool Haji, Batu Pahat

Writing this as it is so hard to find Kacang Pool In Batu Pahat.

Aku pernah makan Kacang Pool sekali je dalam hidup aku. Homemade punya, Oficemate buatkan. Sedap gilaaa! Sebelum ni memang aku xpernah tahu pun cam mana bentuknya apatah lagi rasa dia. Masa Kak Iqa bawak pergi office aritu, tu first time aku try. Mula2 memang macam ‘‘aaa, takpelah, korang makanlah..’’ sebab aku nampak banyak gila fresh onion, plus aku tak makan peanut (padahal takde pun peanut). Tapi lepas skali try sebab kena paksa, pergh, terus takleh stop makan, tempting gila sampai habis satu pack besar roti kiteorang tibai. Hahaha
Then sejak dari tu aku teringin nak makan Kacang Pool lagi.
Tapi mana nak cari dah? Tadak ke orang jual kat KL?

So, last week, as I went to Batu Pahat Johor, the first thing that comes out from my mind is '‘Kacang Pool!” I need to eat Kacang Pool in Johor. It is a must!! So, I did asking my officemate, where to find it. Tapi diorang tak tahu, semua mention Kacang Pool ada dekat Johor Bahru. But I only stay at Batu Pahat. Batu Pahat – JB is a little bit far plus I have nothing to do in JB! I’m so disappointed. Then, I search through out the internet, and it’s so hard to find the information. After 2 days, baru lah I jumpa, Kacang Pool Haji yang famous tu buka cawangan kat Batu Pahat.
The excitement went to the max!
Once finished my friend’s engagement, we make our move to the Hotel at Bandar Batu Pahat. Staying there for a night. And the next day, for the breakfast we need to find Kacang Pool Haji cawangan Batu Pahat. I wazed the location based on the information given from the internet, but it didn’t come up. So I went back to the receptionist of the Hotel to ask about the location. Suprisely, she don’t know the existence of that place.  Do I need to bury my wish and should we just have a Nasik Lemak for breakfast? Sigh.
But we tried, try-and-error-followed the map hoping it will lead us the right place;

Location : Kompleks Niaga Benteng Peserai

Place to waze : Hospital Putra , because they’re in front of each other.


Please be open! Please be open! Please Please!

So, finally! I get to eat Kacang Pool for the second time! Oh, do I need to count my second bowls as a second time too or should I exclude and count it for third times?!

The price increases from Rm5 to Rm6.



But the taste is not same as the previous homemade one at the office!
The bean and beef are not too much. Not as satisfied as before. Should I try making it myself?

I guess nobody will eat it. Hahaha.
My tummy is happy!

Thursday, July 27, 2017

3 Hours of Singing



I think i should apologize and thanks to whoever have been with me in Karaoke room. Not only in Karaoke room, but also in the car, room, toilet or everywhere you have heard me sang! Yesterday while we were having fun with karaoke, i took a video of myself, and i review it today and the come out is.......o-o-k-a-y, my voice was (is actually) so rough! I sincerely apologize for your ears, really hope they are not bleeding and thank you so much for never stopping me from singing BHAHAHAHA

But anyway I'm having so much fun yesterday, thanks for having me. We never go straight for 3 hours session right?, but we did it as it was 2 hours plus free one hour. Sape je baik hati nk bagi free? Grab the chance and sing till the night. What a WEEKDAY! *love emoji*



Dont worry we still have voice.

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Tempat Makan Best Di Melaka

Hi Assalamualaikum,

Firstly, aku bukan orang Melaka. Tapi pernahlah beberapa kali pergi Melaka. So, updating post ni as a memory & hopefully can help you guys food hunting in Melaka!

🍜1. Breakfast. Roti Canai Kayu Arang.

Disebabkan aku stay kat Selangor, so biasanya gerak pagi dari Selangor, nak breakfast dekat Melaka tu jauh sangat,  so berhenti rnr je breakfast.

Aritu sekali gerak ke Melaka awal2 sebab nak try makan kat kedai ni (urusniaga ; 6.30 pagi - 12 tengah hari) Perghh punyalah ramai gila orang. Full table, haritu pun kena tunggu kejap sampai customers lain abis makan. Mesti korang pelik kan? Roti canai je pun, kat mana-mana tempat ada jual roti canai, tapi yang uniknya kat sini dia pakai dapur arang. Tapi who cares right? asalkan roti canai aku masak dan sedap. Hahaha

Roti canai yang paling femes kat sini roti canai cheese harga dia RM6.00 tak silap aku. Aku order yang ni. Pergh sedaappppp. Satu pun dah kenyang sangat dah. Banyak je aneka juadah lain yang ada, bukan roti canai je, nasik lemak , satay, kuih muih pun banyak.

Tapi sumpah best roti canai cheese tu. Aku nak repeat!

Owner tu suruh try balikkan roti. Dia  tak tahu aku ni anak tokey roti canai jugak. Dari kecik dah rasa pegang sudip ni hahaha. Sebab kan dia so friendly, so aku layan je lah.

🍜  2. Ee Ji Ban Chicken Rice Ball.

Restoren yang tengah viral sekarang ni. Kedai dia nama memang cina, owner dia cina, aku pun was-was masa 1st time dengar. Tapi dont worry, kedai ni memang dapat pengesahan sijil halal. JJCM and Mad Market Keknis pun dah review sini. Nasi ayam yang dikepal-kepal jadi bulat. Worth la kalau sekali korang nak try. Sedap. Aku bagi 4 bintang. Satu ball nasi tu harga dia 40sen. Kalau korang lapar, 10 rice balls pun dah cukup sangat or moree hahaha. Dia ade variety set of dish. Banyak sangat boleh pilih, udang sotong, ayam dan ikan.

Urus niaga ; 930 AM - 10PM
Thursday tutup.
Address: 275, Jalan Melaka Raya 3, Taman Melaka Raya, 75000, Melaka.



A set for adult ; 10 rice balls & a plate of chicken

🍜  3.Coconut Shake Klebang & Batu Berendam.

Ada dua kedai coconut shake yang famous kat Melaka, satu kat Klebang & satu kat Batu Berendam. Aku dah pernah cuba dua-dua. And obviously, nama Klebang lagi dikenali kan? Bagi aku dua dua lebih kurang je rasa dia. Dah nama pun coconut shake kan. Ada pernah try kat lain pergh lagi terangkat. Tapi dah alang-alang sampai Melaka, kita cuba lah.

Dari segi panjang beratur dia, mula-mula aku try yang Batu Berendam, yang dine in boleh tahan penuh jugak satu kedai, yang beratur, tak ramai, so within 5 minutes, aku dah dapat orders aku. Tapi kat Klebang, yang dine in, takyah cakap lah, siap ade guard tolong jaga trafic, parking pun dah nak full, dia punya beratur, hmm terkejut eden, last skali aku g beratur yang booth kat luar je, around 15 minutes jugak tunggu turn sebab sorang-sorang angkat 10 cups. Aku beratur nak beli satu je. Hahaha. Tapi sedap. Dua-dua sedap. So kalau malas beratur, korang boleh try yang Batu berendam aje.

Beratuq untuk Cocount Shake Klebang Hujung Minggu


🍜  4.Kuih Keria Antarabangsa Haji Jalil

Kedai ni beberapa minit je dari Coconut Shake Klebang, betul-betul tepi jalan. Aku bukan penggemar kuih manis sangat. Kuih keria pun kalau orang bagi free aku jarang sangat ambik haa nampak tak dia punya sombong. hahaha, bukanlah dah memang tak makan kan. Tapi disebabkan aku nak lah jugak try celah mana yang dasyat sangat dia punya viral kuih ni. Pergi punya pergi, ada dua kedai. Dua dua nama kuih keria antarabangsa, tapi satu nama Hajah Rahmah satu nama Haji Jalil. Masa tu kiteorang pun pening nak piloh yang mana. Nasib baik kiteorang dah search bebetul ritu, Haji Jalil punya rasanya yg ori. Ntah-ntah cawangan dia jugak tak?

Masa aku pergi around pukul 1+, tak ramai pun orang, dalam 7 orang tapi elok-elok sampai je turn aku, terus kuih keria abis, ei panas betul, padahal nak beli 9 ketul je pun. Disebabkan dah alang-alang sampai and beratur, kiteorang bersabar je tunggu kuih sampai, around 45 minit jugak lah tunggu. Terkejut aku masa pusing belakang, pergh barisan orang beratur, sikit lagi nak masuk dapur hihihi

Waktu urusniaga :


Tapi memang sedap pun, aku bagi 4 bintang. Satu bintang lagi potong sebab kena tunggu lama namateyyy.
-Aku search, memang ada yang tunggu sampai 3 jam, and service sedikit 'thumbs down'.
Aku pun kena aritu, tanya bebaik berapa minit agaknya aka nak kena tunggu, pastu dia balas, akak cakap awak pergi ambik kerusi,duduk, dengar jelah cakap akak. Dua kali aku tanya dia tak jawab, aku ni dah la nak berjanji jumpa kawan dekat bandar. geram betei -.-




🍜  4.Asam Pedas.

Tak datang Melaka lah kalau tak rasa asam pedas ye? Ye ke gitu? Haha, aku takleh nak bagi suggestion kedai mana sedap, sebab aku baru makan kat dua kedai. Aku boleh list je asam pedas pemes kat Melaka, aku pergi Ahad, mostly banyak kedai tutup.

1. Asam Pedas Claypot.
2. Asam Pedas Pak Man - aku makan sini, dan memang best!!
3. Kari kepala ikan Hajah Rahmah - Niat asal nak pergi sini, tapi sampai sampai dah tutup. hmm
4. Asam Pedas Selera Kampung.
5. Asam Pedas Pasar Borong.



🍜  5.Roti Nan Pak Putra.

Lepas dah breakfast roti canai, lunch Asam Pedas, Keria and Coconut shake tuk makan petang, tempat yang best tuk lepak memalam adalah kedai roti Nan Pak Putra ni. Ada chicken tandori, roti canai, roti cheese nan cam biasa lah, stendet kedai mamak. Aku taknak rating, sebab bagi aku, aku jumpa banyak lagi yang best.  So, kalau nak cari tempat santai malam, mungkin this is one of the place you can choose. Makan kat luar, tempat ni sejuk.

Waktu urusniaga ; 530 petang - 100 pagi (close on alternate Monday)



So list yang bawah ni aku list for the next place aku kena pergi makan bila sampai Melaka!

🍜  6.Mee Besen.

Paling femes in Melaka. Mee & western meals. Nak pergi haritu tapi closed on Monday. Will make sure next pergi kena try. Bersedialah mental siap-siap tuk tunggu giliran serve sebab dengar nya customers boleh tahan ramai.

Waktu Operasi : 3.30 petang - 10.00 malam ( Isnin Cuti )
Lokasi Baru :
Mee Besen Ori Melaka
No.17, Jalan PNDD 1,
Pusat Niaga Durian Daun,
75200 Melaka 
No.Tel : 010-2737895

🍜  7. Taste Better Cream Puff
🍜  8.Cendol Jam Besar.
🍜  9.Cengkerang Shell Out, Kota Laksamana
🍜  10. Medan Ikan Bakar Crystal Bay
🍜  11. Puteri Era Roti John

Tu je lah serba sedikit info dan pengalan yang boleh dishare.
Lapar lah pulak asyik cerita pasal makanan Hurmm hihi



Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Alhamdulillah

After 15 days of break, it feels so good to be at this spot again!!!!


Semoga Tuhan lembutkan balik hati ini.

Monday, July 24, 2017

A lot Are Still Loving You

*Publishing old draft*
 Hi my best friend-diary,
After a long period of hibernation, it feels good again to meet you. I’m not in the mood of writing, but I make it as a compulsory to myself as writing is a good way of healing. Yes, I have been broke for too long. Poor me. Cant eat well, cant sleep well, cant work well, crying in a bed, bathroom, car, streets and even everywhere. Worse right?
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down my face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
Gratefully, I have many many of supportive friends around me who texts, dm, calls and sit in front of me asking for my condition. They all encourage me to stand up again after falling from this high gorge. The heart breaking feeling is so so so bad and has a lot of negative-side. Nauzubillah, hopefully, I wont get to go thru this pain again. I cant see anything blooming anymore after the broke-up. It's so dark. It’s really hard to go thru a day without the same routines, no more text from you – you have no idea how frequently I’m looking for your text. But now I realize, it’s not so bad. I'm getting better now I guess.

 “I hate you for giving up on us. I hate you for hurting me.
I hate you for making me cry. I hate you for leaving me.
I hate you for what you’ve done. I hate you for ruining everything we had.
I hate you for making me trust you when you were just gonna break that trust.
I hate you for making me love you so much. Mostly, I hate you for making me a fool because i still love you despite everything you put me through...”



Dear Faisal, it’s really hard for me to get up from this high falling, but realize the fact of that I’m just falling alone make it easier. I have no idea why you are asking me to keep you as a friend on instagram while all you did back then is showing off your sweetness with your new gf (old xceli). Are you wishing me to see it and keep crying? Seriously? Since you did that, I got so many unexpected reactions from everyone. I’m ashamed. But thanks to you, because you make it easier for me, by showing off your true color.


A year and I cant believe I still crying myself over you even throwing my phone (really regret that fool). I have no strength to remove you from my friendlist & contactlist, deleting all our conversation, but thanks again to my friend who took my phone and did that. Because she knew, I will never do that even I promised i will (she knew me pretty well). My phone hang for 3 times just to delete our chat. Eventho, there are still undeleted files left in my hiding place, hahaha im so sly. Can you imagine how long the chat was? Ya, I know you dont even care. So now as you are showing everyone you are so happy with the new one, I decide to let everything go. I realize I need to move on too. Eventho, God knows what have you did to me. All the lies. And I decide to change my dua' too. Start from our first met,my dua' was always to you, I always pray that we will end up together but now I will let you happy with your own choice. I really hope we are not meant to be together. I admitted that I’m so sad in fact of losing you as you always promised
you wont ever leave me. You lied and your new gf is a liar too, promise to stand by my side konon. Nak je aku print screen semua conversation kau dulu forward balik kat diri sendiri tu.


Thanks for all of the concerns and supports friends, I’m so touched. Everyone is telling me to move on, everyone loves me, no one wants to see me broken for that long & bad. At first, I admitted, I refused to take their advices,  i tot they dont understand me. “Hey, you are not in my shoes, so dont ever think it is so easy!” But later on I realize, they all already went thru this phase, people love me, they advising me alot because they are all concern bout me, I’m  so blind by thinking they dont understand. I’m so selfish, why keep I’m hurting myself even the truth is already in front of me. I realize, sadness wont make me feel better, but it does drag me to the darkest place. I need to walk away from this source of pain, so that I can start healing.

Thanks Allah for these ups and downs moments. Thanks for choosing me. I’m regretting nothing. I read a lot of motivation stories. I noticed that this hardship make me closer to Allah as I’m always crying to Him. I learned to not trusting people so much. Even after the thousand of promises, people will leave me anyway. Forgiveness will help me obtain inner peace, I’ll forgive myself again and again. Today, I promise myself I wont stress too much over this matter again. Do believe, Allah chose me to go thru this hardship for a reason.
Really thanks to everyone who love me unconditionally.
Attached this for myself reminder ;
We never meet, but thanks for the spirit booster.
Sweetest
Hahaha, sorry, I cant help from laugh. Seriously that kind of question? I knew you've been contacting with her.
Nak je aku forward conversation korang. But it's okay thanks btw start from the beginning.
The one yang paling tired bagi nasihat kat aku. Sian dia penat tetiap hari dengar aku merapu.


 


Thanks girlfriends. A lots more. Tapi biarlah. Aku nak lupakan semua ni.


“No matter how shattered your heart is, never lose hope. Cry to Him for as long as you need. Only He can turn tears of sadness into pure joy.”

Your heart will heal. You have to believe that sayang.

i'm hungry. Pen off.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Antara PTPTN dan JPA (Part 2)

Hi  Assalamualaikum..


Have a beautiful day to everyone who reading this right now! I have go thru a deep thought to decide whether or not bout writing this post. It's because if I really want to share, I already did that for a couples years ago - sebab aku takut korang salah pilih. And I hope I really hit the 'Publish' button in the end and not to Draft as I always did. Hahaha.

My last post was on 2013, really cant believe its help people. So as promised here goes the third entry.

For me, it's never wrong to share you experience, not only the good experience but people also need to know your bad one so that people wont go thru the bad days like how you did!

Sorry for my English, so tujuan post ni, aku cuma nak tolong anyone yang pernah search macam mana nak stop PTPTN, macam mana nak pilih kalau korang dapat dua-dua pilihan tu? Aku cuma  nak tolong students or should i call you adik by now? Damn, I'm aging! yang confuse , im trying to help because i was there before, searching really hard, inbox people, drop comments to ask even i never know them, so lets me help you even it's just a small sharing...

I'm not going to write about their benefits...because I believe there are a thousand of websites about that. And in the end of the reading, you will get the answer "of course JPA is the best one! you dont have to pay them back!" "Kau bodoh ke nak tolak rezeki dah dapat scholar JPA, you are the chosen one! just grab that!"

Aku ex-student degree. Memulakan degree dengan dibiayai PTPTN. Sampai semester tiga, aku dapat surat, JPA aku lulus. Aku akan dapat scholar JPA bermula sem depan (sem 4). Tapi aku kena stopkan PTPTN. Tak boleh ada bertindih. Masuk sem 4 aku dapat dua-dua, sebab PTPTN cakap masa tu dia kena habiskan satu tahun untuk pengajian. Dia kira pakai tahun, bukan pakai sem. So habis 2 tahun pengajian, aku takkan dapat dah PTPTN. I go with the flow. Aku baca blog, websites, semua cakap grab JPA if you get it. So aku follow that step.

Setahu aku, seingat aku, (forgive me if i'm wrong - 3 tahun dah tinggal study), kalau you dapat JPA ni of course lah you punya result okay kan? PTPTN dah menjanjikan, kalau you grad with the first class, you dont have to pay them back. Part ni lah yang cliche bagi aku. Seminggu aku fikir benda ni. Dua kali aku call pihak PTPTN nak sahihkan benda ni. Kau rasa kau confirm tak kau akan grad 1st class? Dah tiga sem kau exam and got the results. Pada masa tu aku yakin 80% yang aku boleh grad 1st class. And yup, I got dean awards for all semesters & grad with 1st class.

So, ingat tak tadi, aku dah stopkan aku punya PT separuh jalan, dan untuk sem 4 ianya bertindih. Sekarang, aku dah habis study, i need to pay that amount back - amount yang overlap sahaja! Tapi dah dua tahun aku ulang-alik pergi PT, nak bayar balik, ingat ye korang, duit PT tu hutang, jangan hidup dalam berhutang. Aku nak bayar balik thats why aku ulang-alik pergi ofis dia, tapi sampai sekarang diorang suruh tunggu surat , for two years! and I never get any letter from them! So frustrated!

So, nasihat aku, kalau korang yakin korang boleh grad dengan kelas pertama, just continue to use PTPTN. Study smart, and change that loan to scholarship. Jangan tamak macam aku. HAHAHA.


JPA hanya start from sem yang korang ditawarkan tu, dia takde cover2 yang lepas. Boleh refer kat surat tawaran JPA :)


Tapi, kalau dah dari awal dapat JPA, jangan gegatal pulak pergi cancel and pilih PTPTN.
Dan, kalau tak yakin boleh grad first class degree, you can choose my path, cuma sem yang bertindih tu je kena bayar balik. Cheaper dari bayar semua sem kan.
Of course you cant have two sources in the same time!

Hope this entry help!
Yeay! I really hit Publish button!
Okay lapar, nak gi masak.


Change is Hard



Morning weekend.



Deciding to change a lit bit appearance on my blog as a step to make a better start of life, but i cant find anything to fit the taste. That 6 plus years-old-header needs to be change too as i'm not using the old URL anymore. Changes is pretty hard right?

hmm tengoklah nanti kalau rajin godek lagi

Start form early of this year there is a rumor saying that we will be moving to a new office building, - and i never wish it will be true - and last Wednesday the boss of the bosses changed the rumor to the fact. Damn, I really really dont want to move from this most comfortable bed and private-room. Love this spot really much. Sure, the daily routines gonna change a bit. Changes is pretty hard right? but its sure for the good (really not for me).

...but i still keep a little hope that thing wont happen hahaha!
So lazy.

ZZZZZZZzzzzzz...


Friday, July 21, 2017

A Touchable Heart


One most sure thing i will do at someone’s-close wedding solemnization is crying. After tok imam confirms the akad is sah, and recite dua, at that time surely i’ll start my teary drama. It’s countless how many times already. I don’t know why but my heart is so touchable at that time, it is a beautiful feeling,to see people happy & blessed as they found their spouse and finally get married, follow the sunnah of Muhamad & Islam, I sometimes imagine a lot of angels are being there, happily blessed the moments & the wedding. It’s so undescribe-able-wonderful moment for me. *Damn, my eyes are teary right now*




Last Saturday I went to my best friend’s engagement at Johor, Azreen. She is so beautiful. Alhamdulillah, after 6 years of relationship, she and her bf decided to be together-forever. Semoga dipermudahkan ke next stage my dear! Everything was going smoothly, both of the parties agreed bout the estimated date of wedd and wang hantaran. After everything was done, here comes for the family photo. Her mother was crying, missing her late husband i guess. Sigh, here come a waterfall, I can’t hold back my tears because i understand that feeling very well,- the feeling of missing someone we love. Quickly, I entered a room because my tears went unstoppable. People cant see this!
I really missed my daddy, every single day of my life....
Missed his concerns, jokes, advices, missed his phone calls to check up on me even there’s nothing special happened, loves, supports, cheers and a lot more. I really really missed you daddy. Really wish you could watch me growing up, welcoming me from the door everytime i back home, buying a lot of dishes as you always do to spoil me and to make sure i’ll always be healthy, be the one who will hands me over to the right guy, playing with my kids, i really want to pamper you very much like how you always did to me, and really wish to watch you growing old under my guardian. I really wish to do that. But it’s so sad that I cant......
Dear daddy,
It has been 5 years since you leave me. A lot of things did happened to me, ups and downs. I have a lot of stories to tell to you, start from I have graduated with PINK Selempang for you. But you are not even there! I got a work in this big city daddy, I managed to have a car, I also brought a motorcycle for myself! Ayah, could you please listen to my story for once? Can you respond? Can you please call me for once, hug and pat my back and telling me that i’m doing good? Fool.
You know ayah, i feel so lost lately. I have a very low-self confident, easily demotivated. Im not living at my best. I feel so lonely daddy, sometimes I feel like i’m just doing well, but sometimes i’m sure i’m not. Sometimes at the two junctions, i don’t know which road should i take. I don’t know if this living is a good living or should I get out from this screw-up living? I’m clueless. I have no one to share. I really need an adult to advice me a lot of things they have experienced it. Guide me, tell me if this is wrong or right. I need someone to tell me that everything gonna be okay, support me everytime i feel so lost. You know Ayah, someone has played with my heart. I was so broke. I took more than a year to heal. Your pity little girl has been grown up well but then she has been fooled by a guy. How could people be that cruel ayah? Ayah, I want you back!!!!
You know daddy, mommy missed you so much. She always says your name. Even she is not crying in front of me but i know, she always crying. She is so lonely. The thing she always said “Hidup ni dah takkan sama bahagia macam dulu...” Ayah, I think I’m not a good daughter. Am I do a right thing now?

.....i cant write anymore....


Dear daddy,
Please be happy there. Tuhan, please let my father be in peace. Gembirakan dia sebagaimana dia gembirakan aku dari kecik. Daddy, do you know? You already have 2 cute grandaughters, Khadijah and Aisyah. Nama isteri2 Rasulullah. Cantikkan nama diorang? Dont you want to come, see and play with them? Oh god, I seriously cant open my eyes right now. Waterfall really bad.
Semoga Ayah tenang kat sana, I’m happy to write this letter to you cos I’m really missed to talk to you. Read this anytime you free. Doakan Hada kuat ayah. I have been broken for so long.
Goodnite daddy, Love you so much.
20/07/2017 2307.

Alfatihah.

See With Your Positiveness.

Hi Assalamualaikum..


I got a lot reactions after i post something on my instagram...

"Amboi Noni post gambor makanan sokmo, seronoknya makan"

"Ee ji ban..ee ji bann..hahaha"

"Hey Noni you are so busy ye every weekend, i saw your insta story you're going to Johor & Melaka, you tak penat ke? You always have an activity on weekend.."

"Hey kenapa down semalam? Dah okay belum ni?"

Receiving all this kind of reactions, sometimes make me feel alive, heyy they do noticed i'm exist.

Teringat dulu when i refuse to post my activity kat instagram. Skytrex rasanya (2 years and i still remember his words). "Taknak la aku post gambar ni Asrol, malulah, nanti org tanya macam2, cakap aku xajak.." "Post je Noni, tu hak kau lah, xkan kau nak ajak semorang, post je, bila orang tahu kau dah pernah pergi sini, nanti kau boleh guide dyorang pulak.." Yes, Asrol is a supporter, a good listener, a good talker and has a very high leadership skill. A leader of everything. He shares a lot of his stories to me. Rasa macam tak layak je kawan dgn dia tapi kenapa malu nak berkawan kan? Tapi apa yang dia cakap tu exactly right.
A moment after i post gambar wall climbing, i received a lot of questions. First time pergi ikut orang, Asrol yang kenalkan. Pergi for the second one sebab "Asrol, my friends nak try wall climbing, you boleh guide ke?" Haaaa nampak tak the improvement? sebab tu tajuk post ni, see with your positiveness. Bila kita buat niat yang baik, inshaallah income dia nanti akan baik. Same goes whenever i post gambar hiking. Its good when someone dm and ask for more information.


Most of the things we share, have pros and cons. It's depend on that individual to take it as positive or bad. Boleh jadi orang akan cakap "cis, poyo budak ni menunjuk" but whaeva, it's your life.

Oh i missed one of the feedback,

"Kau dah kenapa asyik post meroyan aje kat insta? Gila ape?..."
Glup!

Sometimes we dont relieved the silly thing we did, but really thanks for the feedback, i never post meroyan post anymore after that. Hahahahaha.

Happiness is having a true friend.

Happy Friday! Today is sundown day, but obviously no sundown for me!

********this post just means to myself***********

Friday, July 14, 2017

Love Note to Self

Hi.

Copying this as she spoke out half from my mind. A note for myself because i'm hard in listening an advice - read as stubborn
.

THE QUEST FOR LOVE

Relationships has never been something I’m brave enough to write about, especially in public. The love between a man and a woman to me is very personal. Add religion into the equation and it just becomes very sacred to me. I do not wish to write too long. However, I just need to let a few things off my chest because it has been bothering me for quite a while now.

Before we jump into the topic, yes I am single. Have I ever been in a relationship? The answer is also yes. I know how it feels like to love and be loved the same way I know how it feels to be completely shattered. You see, different people have different definitions of love. I strongly believe that the people we fall in love with can sometimes reflect the kind of person we are. For instance, I really value religion, knowledge and ambition. Thus, if i were to marry someone, I look for someone with these exact characteristics. I want someone who has the same goals that I have. Someone who will not only fight with me to succeed in this world, but also in the hereafter. I need someone who works just as hard as I do, not someone who is always tired and only cares about sleep. No more time should be wasted with whiny and lazy ambitionless boys. If you’re serious to pursue a relationship, look for a man.

If there’s one thing a relationship has taught me, it is the importance of maturity when it comes to love. NEVER indulge in a relationship just because it’s a ‘nice’ feeling. If you want to be with someone might as well be with a person who will help bring the best out of you, spiritually, mentally and also emotionally. If the relationship you are in is leading you towards the haraam, leave. No buts. It is just the end of a toxic relationship, not the end of the world. 

By the way people, it is perfectly OKAY to be single. I have been single for over a year now, and wallahi I have never been this happy and I have been achieving so much. I always tell my friends that when you are single, you have 27 hours a day. What it essentially mean is that you’ll have more time for yourself. I know some people who can only seek comfort in the presence of their significant other. After one relationship ends they feel the need to jump into another. Chill people, chill. Take a breather. You don’t need another person to feel sufficient. Try to be comfortable and at peace with yourself with or without a relationship. You have the rest of your life to be spent with your significant other, so while you’re single, might as well really embrace/enjoy it.

Okay last point before I hit the sack, never settle. Ya Allah I can’t stress this enough. Being single is better than being with the wrong person. As they say, it’s better to wait long than marry wrong. If we dont know what we deserve, we will always settle for less. But to deserve more, we should first be more. Build your character before you choose to build a family. Study hard, learn new skills, take up a hobby, read more, travel. There’s so much that can be done when you’re single for your personal development. Take care of yourself. Your health, spirituality, intelligence, akhlak (good character) etc & inshaAllah you’ll get someone who’d do the same for you.
Jim Rohn once said, “The greatest gift you can give somebody is your own personal development. I used to say, ‘If you will take care of me, I will take care of you.’ Now I say, ‘I will take care of me for you, if you will take care of you for me”.
I know this entry is all over the place, but I’m half awake so do forgive me. I hope you find this post helpful. As for me, call me philophobic but I am personally afraid to be in a relationship again. But when the time comes, I hope the guy I end up with will be proud with the lady I have become. If you happen to read this, whoever you may be, please know that not a day passes that I don’t make do’a for you, and for us. Wherever you are in this world, I hope you are also striving to be your best self. May Allah make it easy for us to find our way to each other. See you when I see you!


Have Faith Sayang.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Is your life going smoothly?



Updating a new entry in this morning as my head is full of thoughts (messy) once I woke up. I need to spill it out because writing is one of the stress reliever for me. Walaupun penulisan i tak sedap - who cares. Yesterday was my relax day at office -just once in a meantime. Along 9 working hours, I just spent bout 2 hours doing works, an hour for lunch, an hour for watching Running Man (during break time), and the rest were chatting, web exploring, blog reading and searching for job vacancy. - this really make me thinking bout life.

Tak tahu lah nak start dari mana.

Scrolling down on my Instagram's feed every single day. Watch how happy everyone's life, going to vacation, having money to eat an expensive meal, having money to go shopping, a bf making a suprise to his beloved, having a blessed with the engagement and marriage life, having so happy with their baby. Every single day, there is always a happy story to share. No, I'm not getting jealous, iri hati or busuk hati with others' rezeki. I'm not that negative person to be label, honestly I'm so happy for them for being able achieve thier dream & enjoying their rezeki.

It's just a brief feeling that flies thru my heart, "When will can I achieve my dreams like others did?" "Sampai bila aku nak duduk di zone selesa?"

Still remember a few of conversations i had with my friends last Raya ;

  • With a my friend doctor, she looks so so thin.

"Seronok xxx jadi dokter? Finally you get want you want to be., achieve your dream. Mesti best kan, masuk masuk gaji tinggi..." "Mu tahu aku macam nak mati dah, makan pun tak sempat wei, rushing running here running there, kena marah setiap hari, tak terkira dah berapa kali nagis...solat pun kadang-kadang ada yang tertinggal, xsempat.."

Hmm.

  • Another friend,
Masa tu kat open house, and ada ramai kawan-kawan making a group then she just drag me a little bit away from others to tell her story cos lama gila tak jumpa dia ;


"Noni, aku tak share lagi, tahu tak, aku tak percaya wehh, aku dapat 5 bulan gaji bonus (darab pointer) untuk raya tahun ni" "Berapa weh dapat?" "Aku dapat 10k weh, terkejut gila, tak expect langsung.."  "Alhamdulillah, murah rezeki kau..."

Ohmaigad. Speechless. She is in the same age of me. Masuk kerja pun lebih kurang sama dengan aku. I do happy for her, sebab aku tahu she deserved that. She deserved that rezeki so much. Ikhlas, aku langsung tak cemburu dengan rezeki dia because I love her, so I really happy to see she's so happy living her life, having a baby and loving husband. But then i felt gloomy for myself, am I not deserve that happiness and rezeki?

And...

  • She is my best friend who I respect, love and share a lot of things. Jumpa masa raya aritu, and we always will updating our progress of life, she asked bout me first and I still remember what I said to her ;


"xxxx, seronok ke beraya dengan buah hati?, mesti seronok kan ade orang keep in touch everyday, tanya pasal kita setiap hari" "Seronok menda nya Noni, retak menanti belah dah ni, stress aku raya raya ni pun buat hal"
Gulp.

  • And...
Applying a leave in email, so everyone will noticed I will take a leave;


"Noni, ambik cuti nak pergi raya mana lagi tuuu?" "Hahaha, kawan tunang lah" "Kawan tunang?" "A ah kawan tunang bukan Noni, Noni takde rezeki lagi.." "Takpelah Noni, be happy with your own life dulu, Noni muda lagi.." "Ala, xxx boleh la cakap macam tu, akak dah kawin. Hahaha" "Who said kahwin takde masalah? Who said kawin tak gaduh? Who said bila dah kawin 24h happy? happy dengan diri sendiri dulu, kalau dengan diri sendiri tak happy macam mana nak happykan orang lain.."

Hehehehe...

Ada lagi lah a few stories, pasal kawan nak bertunang, jumpa kawan-kawan yang dah dukunganak. jumpa kawan yang dah bercerai pun ada. Oh, life is so mystery.

I'm not being ungrateful. I know everyone has diff path of life. Everyting Allah's plan is always the best and perfect rather than my own plan. Allah dah tulis rezeki setiap insan tu sejak dia lahir lagi. Ya, I know everthing. Dont worry, I will slap myself everytime I felt ungrateful or merungut. I still manage to istighfar everytime I felt down bout my life. bcause I know it's wrong to mempersoalkan rezeki yg Allah bagi. There are still a lot of people who wish to be at my place right? I have read a lot of motivational quotes & stories. I managed to cheer up myself evertime I felt down.

But I do believe sometimes, I can and I deserve to get more. Is it wrong? So clueless bout my life. Envy when others have a very smooth and easy life. I believe me myself can do better to improve myself. Read a lot of motivation in trusting bout rezeki. Tawakkal is trusting and realizing Allah has a better plan for me. But I guess I still need to work harder before tawakal for everything I want to Allah.

Insha Allah. May Allah ease.





Wake up lazy Noni. Wake up.

Monday, July 10, 2017

Chill out In Selangor - Part 2


As promised, entry sambungan dari entry dulu ; click here – PART 1

I hope this entry gonna help whoever yang looking for a simple things to do with your bestriends in Selangor! (Short trip in Selangor)

So, after everyone agreed with my tentative draft for 3 days 2 night. Jie helped me out to book the hotels & event time. Here goes the trip ;

Thursday’s night : Jie, Zaty & Aniq came from Terengganu by bus and arrived at 430AM. Afiq was (at that time still Zaty’s fiancΓ©e) fetching them from TBS to Masjid Putra Putrajaya.

Friday  - After Subuh, I went to Putrajaya to fetch them up and the trip began hihi. Sight seeing, ambik gambar sekeping dua dulu dekat dataran Putrajaya. Seronok pusing pusing dalam Putrajaya sebab awal lagi kan, tak banyak kereta sangat.

Lepas tu, misi mencari breakfast. I bawak diorang pergi The Atmosphere, Seri Kembangan. Tempat tu at little bit sunyi but lucky ada kedai makan Melayu. Kitaorang grab Nasi Lemak sorang satu. Boleh lah tahan. Lepas makan explore bangunan Atmosphere ni. Bangunan kosong tapi ada banyak mural arts (2D & 3D) kat dinding. Macam street Art Penang tu, tapi dalam bangunan & teduh! Banyak sangat tempat boleh posing. Disebabkan takde orang lain, so kiteorang conquer tempat tu hahaha. Entrance fee? Takda pun. You are free to take a thousand of photos sekalipun. Cuma take care of the place jangan buat rosak/kotor. Mural Arts dia bersepah sepah (tak salah sampai 80 lukisan) you need to rajin discover setiap sudut wall dia. Tapi kiteorang tak tengok semua pun, ada orang mengada ngada cakap dah lenguh nak jalan =P


Around 1030AM – kiteorang gerak pergi cari barang hantaran dekat SOGO & baju nikah & sanding & bridesmaids (unplanned) dekat Jalan Tar. Ni kali ketiga aku pergi Jalan Tar sebab nak teman bakal pengantin cari barang dia. Asyik teman orang je kan, bila ntah turn sendiri. Hikhik. Insha Allah, semoga Allah permudahkan. Lama jugak lepak kat sini. Sampai around 300PM - hari first ni just chill chill dulu sebab still tak cukup lagi 2 orang.

Lepas settle semua barang kiteorang patah balik gerak pergi Bnadar Baru Bangi sebab nak iringi sorang lagi Datin, dia dapat cuti arini so kena tunggu dia abis kerja dulu. Lepak2 jap umah Ain, solat Asar & fetch another one Datin. At 8pm, semua ahli persatuan dah cukup, with two cars, kiteorang bergerak pergi Shah Alam untuk check in hotel.
Kiteorang stay City Resident Hotel Shah Alam, 2 queen beds + 1 single bed ;
Izaty is missing hahaha.

Satisfied with the room. Murah kot kongsi 6 orang, lagipun nak duduk sekejap je buat tidur. pagi esok awal-awal dah nak keluar. Bilik ni tingkat 4, dekat bawah ada kedai makan mamak. So, tak susah bab makan.
Sabtu Pagi

i love this picture!

Around 730 pagi, kiteorang dah check-out hotel, siap siap terus pakai sport shoes and SKYTREX!! here we come. Nak pergi skytrex ni kena book dulu, jangan main redah je. Kalau takde kosong , nanti buang masa kena tunggu for the next slot. Nah booking website. Skytrex ni dekat Bukit Cerakah, Shah Alam, i choose Skytrex sebab diorang dont mind nak main aktiviti lasak dan bagi aku memang aktiviti macam ni boleh rapatkan ukhwah. And it's a good place to free your mind. Masa ni, Izaty & Mira tak join pun main, so diorang boleh lah chillex with the natural environment.
Nak main Skytrex ni ada tiga stage, Beginner, Intermediate and Advance. Aku pilih Intermediate sebab dulu dah pernah main Advance. Intermediate banyak flying fox, compare to Advance, dia lagi banyak uji keberaniaan and ketahanan. Memang lagi panjang and halangan je manjang. Skytrex is a good and healthy activity btw! You should have a try! Its really really can test your bravery, patience, strength and more. I sweat a lot! (Gonna make a separate entry-kalau rajin haha)
Again, I really really recommended SKYTREX for outdoor lover and active person! It worths a penny! Kalau lah skytrex ni murah je fee masuk memang sebulan sekali aku pergi. Hahaha


Sabtu Tengahari - Around 1 kiteorang dah keluar dari Bukit Cerakah, and fly to Seksyen 7 tuk cari lunch! Tempat makan pun kiteorang google sesiap masuk tentatif sebab you know girls, nak decide tempat makan can take an hour! Klau tanya on the spot sorang-sorang mesti jawab, "aku ikut je tak kisah!" hahaha, so langkah selamat baiklah kite gugel sesiap. We choose *okay lupa nama kedai*. Ramainya orang! Tapi servis dia lajuuuu & banyak gila pilihan makanan. Satisfied!!