Shower done, iron baju kerja done, cooking for lunch done, laundry on going, okay I still have less than 30 minutes while waiting for laundry to be done and before getting ready to office. So nice ♡ #Ishoulddrinkhotsweetcoffeewhilelisteningtobirdshappychirping

Something happened to me last night and I think it is too beautiful to let it go~

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Continuous, a few weeks backwards, a lot of things did happened to me. Aku kena saman, money gone, I hurt, depressed, yada yada yadaa until I reached one break point and burst to tears (it's nice to cry once in a while - it soothes my heart), I was so grumpy, whyyy must this thingssss happened to meee! 'Thinking what was I did that so wrong....', I did a lot of good things, I helped people, spread kindnesss, baca al-waqiah, solat dhuha to enrich my rezeki. I was so frustrated. I took my phone, texting my friend and vomited all of my sadness to her. Dont worry she wont annoyed to me, she is my good supportive friend.

This is what my friend replied to me ;


Lebih bersyukur?

Berminggu minggu aku cari maksud "lebih bersyukur", apa yang aku tak bersyukur? Aku solat 5 waktu, aku puasa, aku baca Al-Quran, I did many of the good things. Which part of lebih bersyukur yang aku missed?

Lama aku cari maksud ni nak faham. Sumpah.

Until last night, I happened to berada kat satu masjid ni. Solat Maghrib and Isyak. And while waiting for Isyak, ada sikit tazkirah, I cant remember the exact title, but it's something yang menjawab kepada persoalan aku since a few weeks ago. (Point no 3 exactly!)

Macam mana nak kasih kepada Allah? / TAKWA

Rodhitu billahi rabba  Wa bilislami dina   Wa bi muhammadin nabiyya wa rasula
(aku redha Allah itu tuhan aku. Aku redha islam itu agama ku, Aku redha Nabi Muhammad itu nabi dan rasul ku)


Ni catatan aku, macam mana aku bangkit lepas aku down;



- Ingat Nabi.
Nabi Muhammad SAW ialah kekasih Allah, insan yang Allah sayang.
Bila aku ditiba musibah, aku sering terlintas, why Allah put me in this waaaayyyyyy?
What sin that I committed oo wrong? Kenapa Allah hukum akuuu?
Aku down, tapi cepat cepat aku istighfar, siapalah aku ni untuk menidakkan ujian Allah? Memang tujuan kita wujud atas bumi ini untuk Dia, untuk tunduk kepada Dia, jadi untuk tambahkan ketaqwaan kita, langsung tak salah untuk Dia uji kita. Even Nabi Muhammad, manusia yang paling Allah sayang pun Allah bagi ujian teruk tak terkata dari aku. Siapa aku ni untuk marah Allah balik? Bila tengok laut aku akan ingat kisah Nabi Nuh kena telan dengan ikan paus, ujian nya lagi dasyat dari aku yang hina ni, tapi Nabi Nuh as tak gelabah pun ditimpa ujian, dia terus keep his faith toward Allah, keep on praying.

- Muhasabah diri, ingat pada orang yang lagi susah/desperate.
Bila aku tak dapat something yang aku sangat-sangat-sangat desperate to have, aku akan ingat kepada pasangan yang dah kahwin mengharapkan zuriat. Takyah pergi jauh, biasanya aku akan ingat kat Dato' Siti (inspirer). She invested a lot of her money in good things, She built Masjid, derma, sponsor, buat umrah every year, keep on praying for her zuriat, tapi still Allah tak makbulkan doa dia until the right time comes. Honestly, Dato's Siti ajar aku untuk bersabar. 10 years is not a short time.

- Count on your own blessings.
Kadang kita jadi buta, kita jadi tak bersyukur, tamak. Kita lupa nikmat lain yang Allah sediakan untuk kita, katakan rini kita tak dapat zuriat lagi, kita kecewa, kita rasa Allah tak sayang kita, tapi kita lupa nak tengok a lots more rezeki yang Allah turunkan kat kita lepas tu tuduh Allah tak sayang kita tanpa sedar we are blindddddddddddddd, blind with wealth, hinggakan lupa untuk appreaciate banyak benda sekeliling kita, and He Knows better when is the right time we should receive the present that we asked for.

-Keep Faith & Trust Him.

- Pegang kata kata semangat. These are a few of my fav quotes yang aku selalu akan ingat.

Have you ever read an article about how bad a child can turn cause by being addict to the gadget? About how children nowadays growing up with the technology and spending their day with the gadget in hands? Waking up in the morning asking for their parents' phone and going to sleep from the entertaiment on phone?. Initially, their parents have a good intention to provide an early eduction to their children by listening to the songs, pronunciations and virtual stories but unfortunately, these end up give the bad impacts towards their children' growth. A lot of bad impacts - stunt growth of the brain, selfish, communication problem, uninterested with a lot of living things because they are used with the cartoon and magic fantasy world, and the critical is it can affected their health problem - brain and eyes particularly.

Based on all of the articles that I'd read, majority of parents are regretting for their early exposure of gadget and a poor observation toward their children. (because I still can see the good impacts from that technology (in-control monitoring)).

If long time ago, we believe, an autism child is something that happened naturally, but shock to know, today, an autism child is also can be happen due to early exposure of gadget to children.

I remembered one day when I was taking care of niece, due to the excitement, I want to have fun with her, so I switched on my phone and showed her a lot of videos from utube. I was so happy as she was smiling, behaving, laughing and having fun with the videos. And once my brother noticed I did that, he asked me to turn it off. My niece cried a lot, and keep asking to watch it more but my brother forbid it firmly. And now I realize, my brother did a very good job for her daughter *salute*

This post went unintentionally long from what I wanna highlight, because I'm in a bit of emotional knowing a lot of parents failed to prevent this bad thing T.T and read all of the stories made me realise I've been through the same addiction gadget syndrome as I mentioned above. The only differ of that is I am an adult and I can think to control it by myself.

To be honest, I cant live without phone. I am addicted to the internet. I can spent the whole day without boring with the phone and laptop and internet.  I wasted a lot of my time, being lazy, started to postpone my houseworks by scrolling down the socmeds.  I can sleep at 2AM by browsing online. I regretted it later but I kept doing the same things. And the worst part, my obsession of phone is I'm using it while driving. A lot of times. Like always! Ya I know it's so so dangerous and sometimes I caught myself in the danger state as I was texting while driving but you know I cant stop myself as driving alone make me so so bored.

A few months ago, I tried to prevent this habit from getting worser, I deactivated my instagram for one month, and it worked! - I started blogging back, I started reading books, I found my life calmer and better, but it only lasted for a month hehehe. Due to the addiction to the virtual world, I became poor/uninterested with human communication.

As I writing this on 1st January, i gonna take a challenge to reduce my time with the phone. I cant live without internet as it's important towards my life - my family, my job, emails and my day routines - so I cant stop subscribe to the internet. But I will challenge myself to prioritize a real world I live, to prioritize myself than others, to more face-to-face communication and to appreciate what is infront of me more than the happiness I found through the virtual world.

One of my azam 2018. Happy New Year!

Till then. I wish you the same good thing!

Goodbye Mr. August! Here comes Miss September!

I gonna make a welcoming month entry, and give myself a pat at the back

to keep improve my life.

It's hard to calm myself down. Seriously.

1. Setiap orang ada cerita berbeza yang telah Dia tentukan dan kita harus percaya kalau kita tetap sabar dan berdoa, Dia akan tunjukkan jalan.

2. Happiness needs time. You have to deal with uncountable heartache to be able to be happy. So be patient.

3. Clear your mind. Strengthen your heart. Try to understand. Live your life.

4. Kadang-kadang mimpi yang kita kejar dan takdir yang menanti kita tak berada dalam satu garis yang sama. Itulah lumrah hidup. Redha.

5. Sama ada kita ada seseorang di sisi atau tidak, pada akhirnya, kita sendiri yang tetap perlu menjaga hati sendiri.

6. It's hurt to hope, but it's more hurt if you don't let it go.

....and moving on seem harder when the one you love moves faster than you.....

Allah created both day and night. If it's dark in your life right now, be patient. The sun always rises. And if it's light right now, be thankful. But know that the sun also set. Praise your Maker for both the night and the day, and know that He never sets...

Have Faith, Noni ❤