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Hai Assalamualaikum!!

Not a day passed without me thinking to write in this little diary of mine. Tapi...tak jugak tulis hmmm.


2019 went great so far and I have so much story to share, so much words to write.
So jom mula....

Tanggal 14 September 2019, Alhamdulillah dengan sekali lafaz, secara rasminya Alhamdulillah aku telah sah jadi isteri kepada lelaki pilihan, Ahmad Najmi. A senior of mine masa kat sekolah menengah dulu. He has been eyeing me for a quite period of years tapi hahaha tapi sorry bro, tidak berjaya, but the end, by the power of solat istikharah, I accepted his heart. Kitaorang berkawan rapat tak lama pun, jumpa first time untuk sesi taaruf dan terus 2nd date jumpa family. A few months after that, dalam 4 bulan kot, terus bertunang dan 8 bulan lepas tu terus bernikah.

Dah nak masuk 2 bulan bergelar isteri, tak banyak pun nak komen tapi satu yang boleh cakap, my life turns 180 degree different dari dulu. Tapi completely changed, but half did. And the changes are nothing to regret.

Okay lah untuk post kali ni, will update again soon!

Till then, xoxo :)
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Am I the only one yang rasa bulan January tahun ni has no end? There are a lot of things that happened recently that makes me feel so damn tired. Bukan nya tired fikizal macam buat kerja berat tu tapi penat kat mental. Personal & office-thingy. Sampaikan rasa went to the office on Monday fuhhh penat dia macam dah kerja sampai Thursday. Macam nak tunggu gaji on 25th aritu fuhhh macam dua bulan dah tak dapat gaji. January flies so slowwwww. 

A month flies, but still this diary is blank. I'm not shocked either.

Lets see what were happened to me this month.

1. No Saving.

I dont want to say it loud but as this site is my other half, I should write this down. In a few days I'm getting enganged ; in February. So January is my preparation-month. Memang banyak gila guna duit (Rm600). Until I've no saving at all. Plus, bulan ni kena renew insurance& roadtax motor  (Rm131) plus service motor (Rm144) plus tukar tayar kereta (Rm320), beli langsir (rm700) plus g Johor for Hawa's wedding. Memang gaji for January yang left : minus. Cerita dia how i survived? ; Korek Tabung.

2. Serabut with the preparation.

Sekarang baru aku rasa. It's not easy to hold a ceremony especially when you are so far away. I really really want to do everything by myself, tapi Ya Allah, trust me, you cant conduct an event when you're not presence at that place. Dont everr dream. Dengan nak ulang alik booking nasi. Nak kemas rumah pun stuck. Nak buat hantaran pun xboleh sbb things are at kampung. Nak pasang langsir pun tak boleh. So howwwwwwwwwwwww. You will need a helper. Serabut gila kepale otak. A few days left tapi preparation baru 40% hahahaha. 

3. Done with vaccine.

Alhamdulillah, abis dah ambik vaccine kat PPUM. Done my 3rd dose. The stupid thing was, aku terpaksa menapak kat PPUM tu dua kali sebab tersalah tarikh pergi. Adoi suck betul rasa. Dah la nak pergi tu malas dah. Bila pergi tak boleh nak ambik injection pulak. Hmm bertabahlah.

4. Irdina Hilang.

This happened end of December, but it kept stuck in my mind so lets count it in too. End of last December, abang aku datang KL, sebab dia ada interview. So, sementara dia pergi interview, he asked me to stay with Kak Ain, mak and the kids at Sogo. To look after. Aku bawak Irdina pergi satu kawasan playground dlm Sogo ni. But in a second, she was missing. sesaat sebelum tu betul2 dia depan mata aku. Oh God, my body turns cold. Heart beat fast. I directly called Kak Ain in case Irdina was with her. Tapi malangnya tidak. I searched her around but she was not there. Mak xyah cakap la, dah cemas dah. I kept recited doa & ayat-ayat alQuran and in 10minutes, I found her. She was looking for a toilet by herself. I was so thankful. Donow how to describe if she was gone T.T. Dont even dare to imagine. (Blaming self)

5. My Biological Clock

I dont know why I feel so f* tired. Banyak sgt kali ni aku akan tidur balik lepas Subuh. Dia punya mengantuk tu pergh level xleh bawak berbincang. Padahal tidur takdelah lewat sgt pun. And bila dh tertidur balik pas Subuh, for sure akan bangun semput semput je nak bersiap and so i keep skipping Solat Dhuha. and tahajud pun sama, lama nya tak buat. I feel soooooo f*ckg bad and hating myself. 

6. My Work Life

This is the my-most stressful thing & journey in January. As you're taking more responsible in your job, more burden yang you akan rasa. More tasks, more responsiblility, and ofkos, the chance you will do mistakes is high. And that was the things that happened to me. I was so fucked up this month as I did a few stupid silly mistakes that should not be happened. And I'm blaming myself a lot for that. And its suck. Because of this I think i'm might be getting anxiety disorder. Nauzubillah, mintak jauh. But it's so fucking tired and frust. 

7. BFF Trip to Johor for Hawa's Wedding.

It is always my dream to watch my bff in a beautiful wedding dress. I couldnt make it on her nikah day kat Terengganu so, as we promised to be with her, so we decided to go yang belah lelaki punya. Aku Jihah n Dibah. It was sooooooooooooo fun. Kiteorang pergi danga bay, pasar karat, ambik gambar kat deck. It was so fun! No lie.



Till then. May the event goes well. 


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#DearDiaryPost

It has been a while since the last time I write a dear-diary entry and talking nonsense in this space. Soooooo tonite I think I want to write one (because I want to remember this) Oh and yes, you can skip to read this post because it's really nothing (but everything to me :p)


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Finally today came. Today is the day that we promised to see each other for the first time after several months being closer eventho we already know each other since past 10 years. Oh God that was longgg! can we get married now?

I supposed to be there at 11am but it delayed as I need to settle a few things at home before going out. So, I arrived at the parking lot at 12.10pm and he arrived at 1230pm grrrr!! Why are youuuuuuuuuuuuuu coming lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Ikut plan, we supposed to go to Tasik Pepsi Blue first but as the day was so hot, so I decided to cancel the plan...................and now seriously.......i regretted it *hentak kepala kat dinding* can we go next time pleaseeeeee? 😀 - if and only if there's a next time

As his car arrived next to my car, I was so freaking nervous.  Now tell me,

How.am.I.going.to.enter.his.car??

Can someone just teleport me there.


Malu siot. I just sat down in my car for a few more minutes evntho at that time I already turn off my car's engine and so the air-cond. I can felt my heart pumped the blood faster than usual and I got not idea what is wrong with it. Buuuuuuuuuuuuut seriously tell me, how am I going to drag my feet out and in to his car. Bismillahirahmanirahim satu dua tiga, pull the door handle, Assalamualaikum, senyum.

Honestly, I didnt have bold to look at his eyes. 

Can. I. just. go. out. again?

Then kiteorang decide untuk terus pergi makan tengahari dan waktu tu baru lah aku perasan yang aku tak makan sarapan lagi as I was so buzy settle things down or maybe I dont realize I didnt take my breakfast because im nervous? Or did i ex.....cited to see him? hmm sorry I cant decide ;p

So kiteorang gerak pergi makan boat noodle. Then gerak pergi pantai, then gerak pergi Warung Pok Nong tapi kedainya penuh and as I dont want to waste a lot of time queing for hmm idk, food that I think I can get it at diff place, so we moved to diff stall. Jumpa next time Pok Nong.

Im glad today was going smoothly except for one thing!! Hahahaha. I was on the first day of period, and i didnt realize my blood leaked out from my pant to the car's seat.  A MAN'S CAR. Can you believe that? The thing is, I didnt feel any moist or sakit perut except for I wanted to pee, and as I getting up to go out of the car I checked my seat and oh.....mai.....gaddddd. There was a lot of blood! Did my heart suddenly pumping so hard until my blood veins cant even supported it and it needed to find its way ouuttttt? I was so embarrassed Hahahahahahaha I didnt know what he gonna think (and dontcare hahaha) but one thing for sure, I needed to cover this before he looked at it. Lucky I brought an extra bag and acted quickly. 



Hid my red face behind my poker face ;p


Overall, it was a good short catch up and I hope I could hear a good thing from you. Sorry if I'm not being as sweet as a "girl-friend" should be because honestly, I'm still afraid to deeply fall in love. 

So, I hope today is one of the days that you will remember & treasure ❤️


♫ Some nerve you have
To break up my lonely
And tell me you want me
How dare you march into my heart?
Oh, how rude of you
To ruin my miserable
And tell me I'm beautiful
'Cause I wasn't looking for love, no
Nobody asked you to get me attached to you
In fact you tricked me
And I wasn't trying to fall in love but, boy, you pushed me
So all that I'm asking
Is that you handle me with caution
'Cause I don't give myself often
But I guess I'll try today
'Cause I've had my heart
Broken before
And I promised I would never let me hurt anymore
But I tore down my walls
And opened my doors
And made room for one
So, baby, I'm yours ♫




25 Nov 2018
Till then, xoxo.

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I dont know how to write down this thing but what I know is I need to write as there's something stuck inside me that need me to pour it down. Plus it's one of the moment I want to remember.

Actually, since last few months, we (my department & I) knew we will have a team-restructuring. It either - me going back to my old team - or me staying still at this current team. 

Last month I had an individual review ; one-to-one session with my boss. She asked me, if I can choose, which team I would like to go? Without being too thoughtful, I just choose to stay at my old place. "Why?" "Because I think I'm more comfortable to do the things that I'm used to do."

She replied , "Oh? Hmm I'm disappointed to hear that. I thought you're willing to learn more? I thought you're willing to grow? Or maybe because you've been promoted, you think that's enough for now?"

I cant remember the exact things she said as it already a month passed but it goes ;

"Here is the thing Noni, we're young and you're still single. I can say you got no distraction and bigger life-commitment like you know, children and stuff. You have background education. Now you have a chance. Dont stop to learn. I cant push people and I dont want to push people who doesnt want to learn, because it will not work and not even fair for me to push people who doesnt willing to learn more, it will get tired at the both side, buuuuuuuut if I can push, I will choose you. I think it gonna be fun if you're joining output team."

"You can shine. Try to shine. I wont stop you. Dont stay at my shadow."

"I got no confident and I dont know how to shine."

"Hm, how to shine ya? Try with 'take the responsibility'. Thru that you will take a step and lead people. You knew, I started with nothing of attribute knowledge but what I can confidently say now, if I do attribute coding, I can do better than you (who already do it for yearss)"

.

It's actually moved me how someone do believe in me- the way a lot more better than I trust myself hahahaha. See, how low confidence I am. Thanks Mima, I gained a lot of self esteem thanks to you ❤️


So today is the announcement-day to know our new group & the first day we're sitting in a new role after the team-restructuring. And I got to stay at Output! Alhamdulillaaaahhhhh. Cant thankful more. From the first day joining until now, I got to be at 3 different teams. Crosscoding, attribute coding and now to output :)




STOP COMPLAINING!

I think I had said about this a lot of times in this blog, but I really cant stand with the people
who got a lot of things to complaint instead of being grateful. People bad-mouth a lot
about their own work-place. Dont you know it is where you're gaining your rezeki 
and income to survive?

You know right?


Then how could you do that!

If you dont like your working place - quit. Dont say anything bad because it will makes 
you become such an ungrateful person.
Tu yang akan menyempitkan lagi pintu rezeki korang. 

Just remember -
There're a lot of people who're still surviving to find a good work, money and income.
Please be grateful since you got an income now.
Practice to complaint-less & do better at work.

And the thing I'll make sure I'll never forget is..
the struggle I was to get a job after graduated, so if I'm complaining so much now,
know that, I dont deserve my current place.


Wishing all the best to myself for the new-team structure.
Do your best. 


Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quiting's out of the question
When it gets tough, gotta fight some more
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's' worth having, it's worth fighting for!

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Initially, I wanna update a post about Broga Hill, but I'm internally happy now, so I think I wanna jot this feeling down and this post gonna be more like a dear-diary post. Lama dah tak update life thingy.

Haaiiii Hello everyone! (eventho no one reads this hahaha)

I woke up this morning with the terrible dream (used to be sweet but not anymore), honestly dont get it why still I got a  dream about youuuu continuously! ZZZZzzzzz It's 10.30am right now, so Good morning! It is currently sunny outside, I'm alone in the room and music's on. Love this surrounding!(1) I need to speed up as I'm going to my sister's house later. Why? Because as I woke up earlier, I got a message from my little brother , there is duriansss at my sister's house and I cant wait to eat it (2).

Last weekend was a joyful weekend for me, I used it wholeheartedly!

Saturday - I woke up so early (4.15am) to hike Broga Hill (3) and I ended my day by swimming at Kelana Jaya's pool (4). I'm so happy I did thingssss.


Sunday - I hung up with my best friend, Jihah, which is just two of us. And she's really really cheered me up. Honestly, I still rasa happy until now. Dari awal pagi, as I got enough sleep (5) - supposed to wake up by 8am but I woke up at 930am hahahaha so tiredddd. I went to car wash to wash my car - so happy to have my clean car back (6) after I lent it to my brother and got it back so dirty grrrr.

Back to the story, Najihah & I supposed to meet at Sunway Pyramid separately, but she insisted to pick me from home and I'm so happy to car pool as we will spending more time together chatting & laughing (7). Evento I knew I will have to drive her car (every single time when we're together) but I dont mind because I love driving. We went to the mall, having good foods and watched movie. We watched Korean movie, The Accidental Detective, the first one hour of the movie was so boring but another second one hour barulah banyak action and kelakar part. Kwang Soo's action was never disappointed me. I wish he could be the main lead instead of second-role. We laughed so hard and I really feel so good -u know the feeling after laughing so hard (8). 

We tried two new foods yesterday (9). The first one was 4 Fingers chicken. We picked mix flavour of garlic and hot seasoning- lucky we didnt pick extra hot. It was spicy for me but mild for Jihah. The chicken was soooo salty! It took me so long to finish it. So so so salty! And the second food that I tried was Johny's burger. 




One more happy thing that I did yesterday was I bought new braaaa (10)!! Not one, not two, but three. Hehehe So so so happy finally I found the perfect comfortable one because honestly I'm so choosey and fussy to choose the perfect one. Of course! bukan seringgit dua harga dia. Really cant wait to wash and wear it hihi.


I dont expect this post to goes long, maybe I'm just getting excited by the happy things happened. Can you see me counting the happiness and blessing above? eventho there are still more I didnt listed it. Alhamdulillah.

How to be happy? Stop comparing your life with others and be grateful with the things you have. You are being blessed with the different kind of journey ❤️

It's 11.30am already now, I need to shower and get ready to my sister's house to eat durian, rambutan and manggis, and meet Aisyah tooo!! And guess what? suddenly it is cat and dog raining outside, with the storm and thunder. Allahu soyyiban nafia. Make a dua now!

Got to go! Till the next one!
Tak sabar nak ngapp durian.


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Finally it's weekend without any work burden dancing in my head #GodBlesses oh, and yesss Hello July! A half year has passed and now we're entering third quarter of a year! I cant believe it goes a way too fast.  

But, even life get hustle, I still need to find myself here. My self-therapy place ♡

Past 2 weeks were really packed, as I began to work again after coming back from a week of Eid-leave, so (1) there are bunches of work that I need to catch up and finish it fast.
(2) Jaja & I had volunteer ourselves to become a part of #NGID of a day. #ChildrenDignity


(3) We (My operation team & I) had a team outing/team building together. We were playing bowling and had a Japanese buffet for dinner. It really helped us to release stress and strengthen our bonding.
(4) Kak Shida was resigned :( so, we held a small party for her. 


(5) and..............................................I start my diet. and I always cheat 😶 It has been a week and I really have a high respect for those who are really can bear themselves from taking good food in a period of time. It is not eassssssssssyyyy!! I cheated hehe but I'll still continue. #Misiuntukkurus
(6) I've completed 5 days of Puasa Enam Syawal and gonna continue another one day after my period ends.
(7) Went to PPUM to catch up on my blood test's result.

And I gonna talk deeper about my number (7)

- I want to blog in Malay, but idk why I ended up using English walaupun my English sangat terok-

End of last year, I volunteered myself to donate my blood at this one campaign. Everything went well on the blood checking, body weight and so on. So, done! But, a couple of months ago, I got a  letter from PPUM which need me to do the checkup again. I ignored the first letter because I thought it was nothing but later on, I still received the same letter with the warning which really need me to go to the Hospital. I took an emergency leave and did the checkup immediately. Last week, my blood test's result came up. 

The doctor had a serious face and voice tone to inform my result and the HIV procedure's paper was in front of me at that time. I shocked, my heart beat a little faster and I raised my voice high accidentally, "haa? HIV?". "Oh, sorry, sorry you are negative for this one" phewwwwww. Negative means okay. Dont do this again doctor, you dont know what have you done to my brain and heart. So,everything is fine on my previous blood test except I need to take 3-continuous-vaccine to increase my anti body level. Normally, people should pay for that vaccines but because I'm a regular blood donor, so I get it for free. Weeeee~




* I skipped a week to post this draft because all of the photo are gone. Seriously need a new phone.

So, I will end this post here! Till the next time!

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Hi everyone salam Ramadhan.
How's your Ramadhan going? I just got back from the mosque after Terawih and feeling so wistful because Ramadhan gonna end so soon and I dont get to use it wholly this year :(

Tomorrow gonna be the last terawih and hopefully to see you again next year! My wish is after Ramadhan, I will still continue to do a lot of sunat things I used to do in Ramadhan. My wish goes to you too. Insha-Allah.

I was scrolling on socmed and found this words. I read and got paused for awhile. The words are exactly point to me. So, I decided to nail it on my diary.
This is me. This was me. I'd been there. I'd been in the dark moment before - in which I have felt - I cant freely breath, as both inhaling and exhaling of air were tortured me so much inside.


I'd been there where I got hurt so deep. I'd been there where I almost lose my faith,
and gave up on everything. I had been there where I dont think I can even keep going, because it feel like there's no more place for me that I can see future hope and light.

But as the time goes by, the key to become stronger is to keep going no matter hard it is.
 Keep your faith as Allah is always there and He will make a best way for you. Aku tahu ianya susah, jatuh dan rebah, gelap dan kosong, but it is one of the life's rule.

I'd been there where I felt so broke until I told my mum I wanna end my career, which I realised today I shouldn't ever tell her. because the first top thing is she will worried so much.


If I could, I want to send my love and care to whoever in the difficult time right now, to whoever facing the difficult and dark moment. Keep going stronger no matter hard it is, even when you have to walk with your hand. It's okay to be sad in order to reflect yourself. All the molecules have their own breaking point before they change to the next phase so also our heart mind a body. Dont look back, the one that hurt you cant heal you. Find the new hope, find the new air.

Keep faith and dont stop praying. The dark time gonna passed.

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Hiii Assalamualaikum!

Okay kali ni kita straight to the point. Kali ni nak story pasal Project Kuih Raya 2018. Puuii nama macam buat projek mega je. Hahahah. Alhamdulillah, tahun ni sis berpeluang lagi balik kampung tolong mak buat kuih raya yang mana dah jadi trandisi every year tiap kali raya. Cuma yang beza nya kali ni, sebelum 15 Ramadhan lagi dah start buat kuih raya, kalau tak sebelum ni lagi 10 hari nak raya baru reti bagi salam kat kuih. Huhu sebabnya sorry lah mami tak dapat nak cuti raya awal. Tahun ni malam raya baru gerak balik. Hooooiii haruuuuu. So, terpaksalah mengelat ambik cuti awal puasa siap siap.


And the amazing thing is, kuih raya yang biasanya buat 4-5hari kali ni siap within 2 dayss! Amaze gila aku rasa. Tapi penat dia jangan tanya laaahh. Hari first buat dua jenis, second day pulun lagi buat 3 jenis. Push jugak sebab aku tak cuti lama wuwuwuwu. And satu lagi extra day aku buat kuih special orang tempah. Jeng jeng jeng.


MY FIRST TIME TAKING ORDER

Florentine Crunchy Almond.

Ceritanya start, a few months ago aku ada buat crunchy almond dengan kaklong and gatal pergi post kat instagram. And this time bila orang tahu aku nak balik buat kuih raya, ada orang order crunchy almond, walaupun takde niat langsung nak menjual wuwuwuwu tapi takpelah kuih senang aje, sis boleh je tolong buat.

First time order, kena buat 3 bekas. Aku pulun buat malam last sebelom balik KL, tapi dapat 2bekas je sebabnya barang tak cukup. Dah malam kedai dah tutup nak topup barang2 ni. Nak kena beli barang lagi untuk satu bekas. Aku rasa alang-alang nak topup barang apa kata aku try iklan kan instagram in case ada lagi yang nak key in order. Mana tau kan rezeki alang alang dah terlanjur buat ni. Alhamdulillah within one night iklan tu, masuk lagi 6 bekas. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.


Tapi yang harunyaaaaa wuwuwuwuwuwu. Esok tu sis dah nak balik KL. Kedai barang kuih bukak pukul 10am. Kelam kabut gila buat kuih. Buat buat buat pukul 12 tengah hari barang tak cukup lagi. Adoiii, nak nagis pun ada sebab buat sorang sorang and kejar masa nak balik KL, dah lewat. Pukul 2 gigih aku pergi kedai lagi beli barang, and pukul 330petang Alhamdulillah siap 8 bekas.

Yang tak lawaknya, besok tu nak agihkan kat customers, tak cukup satu bekas. Sebab salah kira. Perasan tak masuk order baru 6 bekas, yang dah order lam 3 bekas, total 9 bekas. Macam mana aku boleh kira 8 bekas ajeeeeeeeee. Hahahahahaha. Terdiam terduduk. Omaigaaaddd macam mana ni. Nak buat kat sini dah takde oven.

Then sis terpaksa la open second order.
Tambah lagi 10 bekas. Part harunya bila buat kat sini tak tahu bakery shop kat mana. Search search jauh sikit and harga barang pun a bit expensive.


Dari pukul 2petang sampai pukul 430ptg. Stop jap masak untuk berbuka then 9malam sambung balik dari pukul 9.00 until 12 malam. Lenguh nya kakiiiii duk berdiri. Tapi Alhamdulillah dapat lah sis tambah baju raya lagi sepasang. Hiksss.

Cuti raya nanti ada lagi 5 bekas nak buat 💜



Thanks Allah murahkan rezeki.

Korang punya dah siap belom?


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Cakkkk!

2 weeks passed and I still didnt write a single word about this.

A few months passed and still, till now, my works are currently overload. I slept till one two three in the morning with laptop on my body. Working on Saturday Sunday and even public holiday without any finanicial benefits. Takpe, sis redha. Walaupun dah nagis sedu sedu kat opis jealous tengok orang keluar beli baju raya. Huahuahua.

I rarely talk about my workplace, but now, lets me briefly explain.

One month after I graduated, I got an interview from Nielsen and 2 days after the interview, HR called me to inform that I was passed the iv, and a week later I started being an employee there. My career started.

I'm already being in Nielsen for 3 and half years. I started from the bottom with low basic salary as for the degree student - but it's okay - while my others friends were still struggling looking for the job, I'm so thankul that I've a job and I accepted my rezeki, by trying not to being so fussy or demanding. Eventho deep down, it was not enough. Ask la my mum how many time did she heard that I wanna to resign along these 3 years? Hiks And yang tak leh lupa, siap muntah muntah lagi, perut cramp sebab stress dokter cakap. #tekanankerja

When people are complaining too much with the workload & salary, I remind myself how hard it's to get the job, dont complain Noni. And when I feel so giving up, I remind myself, how hard it was before, I prayed prayed and prayed, asked Allah to serve me the better life. And when people advise me to quit the job, I cant, because there are so much burden on my responsibility. Tapi, if you think your company no longer giving any benefits to you malahan membebankan lagi, tarik nafas dan undur diri, trust Allah, rezeki Allah tu luas.



The real supporter to make sure that I keep going.
This promoted is thanks to you Mommy.


Try HARD to not being so complaining and protesting in doing my job and to the commitment yang I commited, Alhamdulillah, this month I officially, promoted to the next level.

It was not easy.

3 years are not the short period of time.

Along these time, there are a LOT of time that I stayed until midnight. And there's one night that I didnt able to sleep. Stay awake until next 7AM in the morning. Can you feel the workload?

ALMOST GIVE UP

When I went thru the hardship, I confined a lot to Allah. I prayed, prayed and prayed. I cried hard to Him when I felt so breaking down. I've no one to story (people will not understand me deep-innerly) so I told everything to Him. If you read my last post (God, are you there?) you may know, how desperated I want Allah to answer my dua. Honestly, I was in the point where my faith started to fade. My manager told me she will try to promoted me since November last year, and now it's May. I didnt blame her bcause I know the process is not easy. But, I'm only human, sometimes I reach my breaking point.

DO GOOD & THERE'S HOPE

This picture exactly resemble my situation.

Actually apa yang aku nak highlighted kan is, dont lose hope to Allah, and dont give up. When you feel so burden, you cant carry on, just cry to him to sooth your heart. Dia Maha Mendengar. He heard you. But there must be a reason why He doesnt fulfilled your dua right away. There must be a reason. He knows better when you know not.


Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can't see which way to go
Don't despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side


Alhamdulillah. Thanks Allah.
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Hi Assalamualaikum...

It's a late night post again.
I want to write a sentence but it seems like i lost in words to write.
I lost in mixed feelings to express.

I just logged in into my email and I got a message....

"The voice that’s always saying “you can’t do this”...”you can’t do that”...”she/he is out of your league"…”
Listen to that voice and my friend, and I can tell you from experience, regrets surely follow.
NOW is the time to do something about it. TODAY is the day you take back control.
"Get comfortable being uncomfortable"

Only God knows how much of things I desperately want to have in my life.
Only God knows how much things I desperately wanna do in my lie.
And only God knows how much achievements I wanna right-ticked in my life.

I desperately want,
But only Him can grant my wish....
I wish to see my dreams come true, to satisfy my family with my achievements.
The things that I cant control. I wish Him to make it real.

Sabr.

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(LIFE QUICK UPDATE 2)

Hi Assalamualaikum.


Writing this at 1AM in the morning, yes, it's already passed my bed-time, but I am still need to grab my lappy and switch it on because I missed to blog so much! I skipped to write a lot of stories in March and today is already the last day in March - oh wait not anymore, today is the first day in April, but whaaatttt! I had only a few entries written in March. A lot of things happened in this month till I didn't have a proper chance to update my stories. My head is a little bit dizzy right now because I accidentally took an extra shot of caffein. I bought a large cup of Starbucks at noon and at night the waiter placed me a wrong order. I got NESCAFE AIS instead of Tea Ais. Two times of caffien in a day Huarggh!

Today Yesterday - as a new day already step in- I was chilling around Najihah. I got no plan to carry out so I just randomly asked her to meet up. I planned to have a movie but since she had a work to do, so we were just chilling around cafes, eating, talking and laughing together. That was better than lying on the bed.

Went to Klang & Najihah treated me a lunch + dessert at Gula Cakery which was expensive. Why do youuuu did thatttt, but anyway thanks a lot. We chilled there around 1+ hours, went to Zuhur prayer and stopped at Starbuck's cafe for more than 2 hours because she still didnt finish her works.

So as the March comes to end, lets see what I got in past month ;


➽ I GOT A NEPHEWWWW!!

A big congratulation to you both Kak Ain & Abg Pih! Ohh sorry, forgot to add one more person, Congratulation Kak Dijah, you've become Kak Long now! Alhamdulillah everything went well. The baby decided to see the world one week earlier. Hai Luqman NulHakim bin Mohd Hafiz ❤



➽ Went To Batu Pahat for #AzreenXWan

Congratulation to both of youuuu! After a real struggle rowing a boat together in the rough waves, since university and till now, you both make it!!!! I'm sincerely happy & so honor to be there as a witness for your big day. You are sooooo pwetty!



➽ A Long Drive.

I know it's not the first time for me to crazily driving from day to night. I had a non stop driving tour before KL-Perak-Kelantan-Terengganu-KL But seriously, I should pat my back again as I woke upp so early (4AM) to Johor-Melaka-KL and arrived back at 2 in the morning and went to the office at the next day. Dying. But I survived! 

➽ Went to Seremban for #AnisxFikry

Another wedding to attend. #blessed.

➽ Suddenly decide to Balik Kampung AGAIN

My sister & I were making crunchy Almond Florentine Cookies for the first time anddd it was so delicioussssss. It was an easy-making but this cookies was so fragile. Need to add an extra-care caution.



➽ I GAINED WEIGHT!!!

Should I blame the weighing weight? Maybe the machine is broken right?


But sadly................... 





.....................it's not.




Arrgghhhhhh I gained about 3 kiloooooooooooooooooooo!!!! Dah macam orang beranak tiga dah badan aku ni. Tapi takkk, orang beranak tiga pun lagi ramping. I'm worser. Kena diet kena diet kena dietttt. I can control my meal, but the most impossible thing to stop is chocolate.

I can't. Chocolate cheerish my life. I really cant say no. Tapi...................



My second meal after 2 hours ate creamy spagetti.

➽ PRESENTATION ❣

Had 2 presentations after a very looooooooooooooooooooooooong period of time I didnt do that. Eventho I'm so nervous I'm really having fun doing it.



A lot of small things happened, for example, officemate's lunch time, teammate enjoying movie together, taking a bus etc etc but there is no fullstop if I've to write everything down. Plus I didnt got to write everything's above in details, so I'll try to frequently update on time next time.


Oh, one more thing before I pen off, I really didnt have enuf time in March to peek on my blog like I always did, but my blog-view went highest in March. I'm so thankful that my words would help youuu guys in seeking an information. This fact delights me to write more! Thank you.


March's.


0250AM already.
Pen off.


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