#DearDiaryPost

It has been a while since the last time I write a dear-diary entry and talking nonsense in this space. Soooooo tonite I think I want to write one (because I want to remember this) Oh and yes, you can skip to read this post because it's really nothing (but everything to me :p)

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Finally today came. Today is the day that we promised to see each other for the first time after several months being closer eventho we already know each other since past 10 years. Oh God that was longgg! can we get married now?

I supposed to be there at 11am but it delayed as I need to settle a few things at home before going out. So, I arrived at the parking lot at 12.10pm and he arrived at 1230pm grrrr!! Why are youuuuuuuuuuuuuu coming lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Ikut plan, we supposed to go to Tasik Pepsi Blue first but as the day was so hot, so I decided to cancel the plan...................and now seriously.......i regretted it *hentak kepala kat dinding* can we go next time pleaseeeeee? 😀 - if and only if there's a next time

As his car arrived next to my car, I was so freaking nervous.  Now tell me,

How.am.I.going.to.enter.his.car??

Can someone just teleport me there.

Malu siot. I just sat down in my car for a few more minutes evntho at that time I already turn off my car's engine and so the air-cond. I can felt my heart pumped the blood faster than usual and I got not idea what is wrong with it. Buuuuuuuuuuuuut seriously tell me, how am I going to drag my feet out and in to his car. Bismillahirahmanirahim satu dua tiga, pull the door handle, Assalamualaikum, senyum.

Honestly, I didnt have bold to look at his eyes. 

Can. I. just. go. out. again?

Then kiteorang decide untuk terus pergi makan tengahari dan waktu tu baru lah aku perasan yang aku tak makan sarapan lagi as I was so buzy settle things down or maybe I dont realize I didnt take my breakfast because im nervous? Or did i ex.....cited to see him? hmm sorry I cant decide ;p

So kiteorang gerak pergi makan boat noodle. Then gerak pergi pantai, then gerak pergi Warung Pok Nong tapi kedainya penuh and as I dont want to waste a lot of time queing for hmm idk, food that I think I can get it at diff place, so we moved to diff stall. Jumpa next time Pok Nong.

Im glad today was going smoothly except for one thing!! Hahahaha. I was on the first day of period, and i didnt realize my blood leaked out from my pant to the car's seat.  A MAN'S CAR. Can you believe that? The thing is, I didnt feel any moist or sakit perut except for I wanted to pee, and as I getting up to go out of the car I checked my seat and oh.....mai.....gaddddd. There was a lot of blood! Did my heart suddenly pumping so hard until my blood veins cant even supported it and it needed to find its way ouuttttt? I was so embarrassed Hahahahahahaha I didnt know what he gonna think (and dontcare hahaha) but one thing for sure, I needed to cover this before he looked at it. Lucky I brought an extra bag and acted quickly. 

Hid my red face behind my poker face ;p

Overall, it was a good short catch up and I hope I could hear a good thing from you. Sorry if I'm not being as sweet as a "girl-friend" should be because honestly, I'm still afraid to deeply fall in love. 

So, I hope today is one of the days that you will remember & treasure ❤️

♫ Some nerve you have

25 Nov 2018

Till then, xoxo.