Time flies fast this decade, I cant even catch up with the surrounding and how I wish I could be a teenager again.

Personality disorder. 🎈


As the clock passed 12 midnight, I received a few of birthday wishes from my friends which I dont expect them to stay up just to wish my birthday. What a touuuuuuuuuuuched T_T Honestly, after a moment of silence, I stared blankly to my phone and started to cry hard. Idk suddenly I became a bit emotional. Mungkin tengah pms. Senang tersentuh. Twenty-six. I still have a lot of things that I want to achieve. I should save a lot of money by now, but apparently, it doesnt happenned. I'm envious with the people who can do & achieved a lot of things while I'm still doubt my self.

I wish I could stop the clock.
I wish my mum can stop growing old.


Ok. drop that part.

So, this year, I had received a few of surprise from my officemates and my bff ❤️
Malu siot dah tetua pun celebrate besday -_-

The pictures were missing. Ni je yg tinggal T.T

Yeaaaaa finallyyyyy! Semalam dapat pun pergi tempat ni! Bosan tak tahu nak buat ape kat rumah so jadilah bebudak jap melawat tempat ni. Hahaha tempat ni, sangat best untuk keluarga yang nak bawak anak-anak mereka jalan-jalan sebab ada a few attraction yang anak-anak akan suka.

I dont know how to write down this thing but what I know is I need to write as there's something stuck inside me that need me to pour it down. Plus it's one of the moment I want to remember.

Actually, since last few months, we (my department & I) knew we will have a team-restructuring. It either - me going back to my old team - or me staying still at this current team. 

Last month I had an individual review ; one-to-one session with my boss. She asked me, if I can choose, which team I would like to go? Without being too thoughtful, I just choose to stay at my old place. "Why?" "Because I think I'm more comfortable to do the things that I'm used to do."

She replied , "Oh? Hmm I'm disappointed to hear that. I thought you're willing to learn more? I thought you're willing to grow? Or maybe because you've been promoted, you think that's enough for now?"

I cant remember the exact things she said as it already a month passed but it goes ;

"Here is the thing Noni, we're young and you're still single. I can say you got no distraction and bigger life-commitment like you know, children and stuff. You have background education. Now you have a chance. Dont stop to learn. I cant push people and I dont want to push people who doesnt want to learn, because it will not work and not even fair for me to push people who doesnt willing to learn more, it will get tired at the both side, buuuuuuuut if I can push, I will choose you. I think it gonna be fun if you're joining output team."

"You can shine. Try to shine. I wont stop you. Dont stay at my shadow."

"I got no confident and I dont know how to shine."

"Hm, how to shine ya? Try with 'take the responsibility'. Thru that you will take a step and lead people. You knew, I started with nothing of attribute knowledge but what I can confidently say now, if I do attribute coding, I can do better than you (who already do it for yearss)"

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It's actually moved me how someone do believe in me- the way a lot more better than I trust myself hahahaha. See, how low confidence I am. Thanks Mima, I gained a lot of self esteem thanks to you ❤️


So today is the announcement-day to know our new group & the first day we're sitting in a new role after the team-restructuring. And I got to stay at Output! Alhamdulillaaaahhhhh. Cant thankful more. From the first day joining until now, I got to be at 3 different teams. Crosscoding, attribute coding and now to output :)