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The clock was ticking slowly to 12AM entering 17November. I wish I could wait to wish a happy birthday to myself but my eyes was so heavy to stay awake. The last time I checked on the clock was 1140PM then after that I just threw my phone away and closed my eyes. Dozed off.

17November.

I woke up with a bright mood! Today is my birthday! Eventho no one would cheer me up today, I promised myself I would. I will give myself a beautiful day to be remember. I want today be such a good memory. I checked on my phone and mommy was the first one who wished me a blessful birthday wish! Love you mum to the moon and its back! 

Frankly speaking, TWENTY FIVE is such a big number for me.

I'm not ready and never will be.

And I wish I could turn back time.

It was Friday and I went to the office expecting nothing, plus no one knew my birthdate. Surprising, after the stand up meeting, Mima told people to sing me a happy birthday song. I was so shy. Hey peolpe can you just whisper to my ears instead of shout it out? Huhu. But actually it was so heart warming. After that I keep receiving wishes from my friends virtually and thru my phone.

In the evening, a few minutes before the office hour ended, my collagues made me this surprise :


Honestly i'm so touched. Thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

It's 1045pm by now and I'm just getting home from driving to nowhere. Intentionally, i was planning to follow up my fever at the clinic but i canceled the plan since the clinic was too crowd with the patients.

...

I tot i'm strong. But i guess I'm not anymore.

Last Sunday, i slept at my sister's house and woke up in the morming with the dizzy head and hot body. Out of the blue. I ignored the signs because helloo come onnn girl im strongg. Cold wont caught me. I gonna fight this fever.

(My boss just got admitted to hospital due to Influenza)

But phewww my energy suddenly dropped down and my head was too dizzy both to stand still nor lay down. I felt so guilty as i had to linger around my niece with my bad condition. I still need to help my sister looking after her daughter while she had stuff to settle. So, in the late of evening, after everything was done, i drove back slowly to PJ.

I tried to stay strong and fight back but i can feel my body's heat too much, my back had pain, and the weird this was, i was shivering cold under the blanket. Force myself to sleep. The only thing that i was thinking everytime i need to sleep with fever or pain is my sins. I always felt like i gonna die during this period. What if I slept and never got to wake up again tomorrow?? I regretted my sins but later i know i will repeat again once. Hooman.

Oh i got 2days of MC. I need to come again for check up if my fever is not going down. Today is my 3rd day since the fever and my body's temperature is going better. But, why my head is still dizzy?....it's really really dizzy. Was it because of blood donation? Or the meat that i ate a night before? Or maybe because i didnt eat well?

My last post is about trying something new. And coincidentally, this post also is about new thing.

Learning New Thing!

You know what? Hahaha it tickles my heart just to think about it.

This morning, I'm about to drive my car to the service center. I booked an appointment yesterday to change my car's battery as it's really in a low power. So, on 820AM, I started on my car. But, unfortunately!! the car was sulking. It didnt want to be alive. The sound of engine was so so bad. My body went cold. Please dont make trouble. Please dont make trouble baby. Who should I call first? I tried to reach PJ service center that I booked  for appointment yesterday, in case they can fetch me up from home, but unfortunately, no answer. I tried my luck to get an assist from Perodua service center, and they asked me to tow my car but I need to stay free till they're arrive. No! I cant! I have final delivery today! No EL. And the shocking thing is, the towing cost is RM100+, even tho my house to the PJ service center is only around the corner! I called becasuse I tot it might be free, but teeettt I'm wrong. Hahaha. Most of my housemates already left to work. Only one more car left at the parking lot! Kak Sue! I went upstairs and woke her up. Sorrryyyy Kak Sueeee. I've no other choice. And Alhamdulillah, she managed to help me out! 

Hi alls. Assalamualikum.

I used to told people and myself the quote of, "the first time doing is the best feeling ever.." Like people say how you cant forget your first love. Eheemm other people say okay, obviously not me. Hahaha. Like how the first time you ride the bicycle, drive a car, trying snorkelling, tasting a new menu etc etc, for me it's always...the first time doing is the best thing ever. And the first time doing also will decide whether you like or dislike the thing and whether you wanna go on or give up on thing. Dont believe me? Okay lets me test you, when you try to eat wasabi for the time, will you continue?

So, this time what I'm gonna share is about my first time too. The first time jumping from the 5meter height into the water.

If you gonna come to Tadom, here is my tips, come on weekdays and bring your own lunchbox. And plus, come with a big group members for example 5 to 7 peoples so that you can conquer the area and it's really really fun to spend time together. Really can enhance ur friendship's bond. (because we're helping each others!)

So, back to my first time story, for this time being, i thought it was so easy to jump from a height platform to the water/pool. I remembered watch one episode of Running Man in which they have to jump in the pool and how easy I labeled Haha & Jaesuk as a coward for being so so so scared to jump. They took more than 30minutes walked back and forth, climbed the stair up and down before jump. It looked so easy from my eyes. But noww once i experience it, hollyyyy shittt! Hahahahaha i respect to whoever has been jump!

Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah.

My house's hall of fame has been completed now, with the four pictures of children Halimah and Abd Kadir, holded the scroll of education.

This is all, congratulations & thanks to you mak & ayah. I know we're not from rich family, even thru sick and pain, you're working hard on the day and night to pay our expenses. You strengthen your hearts to discpline us just to make sure we're becoming the good one, eventhou your hearts were hurt seeing us cry. Because you knew, that was for the best.

These are all we could pay right now, and I promise to be better. Thanks to you parents for guiding and lead us to the right path.

I'm missing my daddy so much now. And i know he'll be crying seeing the pictures of his children all holding the scroll.

I know, we'll never able to repay all of your sacrifications, but we promise to make our life better.

I love you mom & dad.

Congratulations again to my younger brother! You made it! You made it through your hardship and you should be proud! Be better and make a better life! I wish you can achieve your dreams in whatever thing you might do, and be a good child to the family ❤❤❤❤❤❤

Love.

When I was a kid, November used to be my fav month & the month that I've been waiting for since January appears at beginning of every year. You know, November WAS a indicator finally my a-year-school comes to the end! Finally school ends! No more homeworks! (Yeahh, I'm not really a school lover back then). Besides, November is a month of raining, where at my place, (pntai timur), it will be raining all the day and I got to be lazy watching televisyen, or play with water and catching fish. Ohh I missed my childhood.

November is still being one of my fav month, but the reasons have been changed. I'm not a student anymore, so there is no more waiting November comes for hoping great long-holiday doing fun stuffs anymore. Back years then, I was waiting for November to come with a bright heart, but now, i feel so screw up when November comes. It was like, Ohh Really?? A year has been passed? Again? Am I aging? One number added to my age! Ok, thats suck. I dont want to grow up. November comes, and a year gonna comes to the end again but why I still remembered how we celebrated my birthday last year? Pheewww time really flies.

Okayy dropp all the subject!

Hello November 2017! Kindly be nice to each other okay ><

Here is my chosen quote for November ;

"We focus on everyone else's blessings but we forget our own.
Then we wonder why we are unhappy,
it's because we are not appreciative of what
Allah has given us. Allah blesses everyone differently, Alhamdulillah.
With patience and prayer, Allah will give you what
you want and more than you ask for..."

And look what I got for my next book!

Fighthingggggggggggggggg!!!!