2 weeks passed and I still didnt write a single word about this.

A few months passed and still, till now, my works are currently overload. I slept till one two three in the morning with laptop on my body. Working on Saturday Sunday and even public holiday without any finanicial benefits. Takpe, sis redha. Walaupun dah nagis sedu sedu kat opis jealous tengok orang keluar beli baju raya. Huahuahua.

I rarely talk about my workplace, but now, lets me briefly explain.

One month after I graduated, I got an interview from Nielsen and 2 days after the interview, HR called me to inform that I was passed the iv, and a week later I started being an employee there. My career started.

I'm already being in Nielsen for 3 and half years. I started from the bottom with low basic salary as for the degree student - but it's okay - while my others friends were still struggling looking for the job, I'm so thankul that I've a job and I accepted my rezeki, by trying not to being so fussy or demanding. Eventho deep down, it was not enough. Ask la my mum how many time did she heard that I wanna to resign along these 3 years? Hiks And yang tak leh lupa, siap muntah muntah lagi, perut cramp sebab stress dokter cakap. #tekanankerja

When people are complaining too much with the workload & salary, I remind myself how hard it's to get the job, dont complain Noni. And when I feel so giving up, I remind myself, how hard it was before, I prayed prayed and prayed, asked Allah to serve me the better life. And when people advise me to quit the job, I cant, because there are so much burden on my responsibility. Tapi, if you think your company no longer giving any benefits to you malahan membebankan lagi, tarik nafas dan undur diri, trust Allah, rezeki Allah tu luas.

Try HARD to not being so complaining and protesting in doing my job and to the commitment yang I commited, Alhamdulillah, this month I officially, promoted to the next level.

It was not easy.

3 years are not the short period of time.

Along these time, there are a LOT of time that I stayed until midnight. And there's one night that I didnt able to sleep. Stay awake until next 7AM in the morning. Can you feel the workload?

ALMOST GIVE UP

When I went thru the hardship, I confined a lot to Allah. I prayed, prayed and prayed. I cried hard to Him when I felt so breaking down. I've no one to story (people will not understand me deep-innerly) so I told everything to Him. If you read my last post (God, are you there?) you may know, how desperated I want Allah to answer my dua. Honestly, I was in the point where my faith started to fade. My manager told me she will try to promoted me since November last year, and now it's May. I didnt blame her bcause I know the process is not easy. But, I'm only human, sometimes I reach my breaking point.

DO GOOD & THERE'S HOPE

Actually apa yang aku nak highlighted kan is, dont lose hope to Allah, and dont give up. When you feel so burden, you cant carry on, just cry to him to sooth your heart. Dia Maha Mendengar. He heard you. But there must be a reason why He doesnt fulfilled your dua right away. There must be a reason. He knows better when you know not.

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can't see which way to go
Don't despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Alhamdulillah. Thanks Allah.