Today is a weekday but i took a leave because im so tired from over-worked. Cis konon. Tapi betulah tetiap hari balik lambat sabtu ahad kena kerja. I need a rest!  haipp jangan merungut Noni! Tak baik! Geget kang 

Alone in the room staring at the ceiling, thinking what should i do today hurmm 

Nak main masak masak pun air takdakk   So nak taknak kena makan luar.

Shopping? No, thanks.

I'm thinking of hiking or jogging actually but it's quite dangerous since I'm alone.

Movie? Ok lets.

Bila last tengok wayang pun tak ingat. Bulan puasa tahun lepas kot?

And guess what, im lucky!

I still can redeem 2 free tickets for my birthday reward last year. Haritu simpan ingatkan nak guna dengan pokwe masa pergi Penang. Tapi krikk krikk. Lucky sebab sikiiiit lagi dia nak expired. Haha. So today movies are truely reward for myself. Enjoy your two free tickets!

I watched #Allied for the first movie sebab yg tu je timing yang muat muat sementara nak tunggu #Dangal. Not bad. Tapi tak banyak action scenes. So my rate is just 3 stars! Hahaha

And for #Dangal i would like to give 4.7 ! Nangis wehhh hahaha serious best. Nasib baik hall gelap boleh lahh lap air mata 4 5 kali. Cerita family, ketegasan sorang bapak nak didik anak dia. Agak tough, macam Sidek ajar anak anak dia main bekminton. Lakonan dia meresap masuk sanubari. Kihkih. Serious best. Teringat dulu ayah aku kejar keliling rumah masa aku dapat nombor corot dalam kelas sekolah rendah sampai kena turun kelas. Pastu ayah aku kechiwa namatey bila pointer aku teruk. I struggle masa degree dapatkan pointer bagus sampai Alhamdulillah Allah bagi aku ANC tuk ayah 

Arghhh i missed my dad so bad. Berbaloi tengok cite tu lepas stress cenggini sebab tetiba semangat tuk fighting aku mencanak balik. 

*Posted from Vivo

When you have a comfortable friend and you dont mind to talk anything with her ;

 

"Ima, Ima happy x?"
"Happy mcm mana tu Noni? Specific kan. Happy ni boleh dtg dalam banyak keadaan.."
"Ntah la ima, generally. Knape Noni rase Noni xhappy?"
"Banyak kan baca alquran"

 

Gedebuk buah nangka jatuh. Hehe.

 

Ntahlah, I was too broke lately, everyday there is the time which i will sigh hard and cry alone. Mengelamun, prefer spent time alone. Tak baik kan? Tapi memang most of time depan pc je mesti bergenang air mata pastu cepat cepat sapu. Bukan nya nak sangat pun jadi cenggeng tapi dia macam involuntary action.

 

Ya Allah,

Only You knew what had I passed thru. I know it's nothing big to You. And I know I suppose to go thru your test excellently. I asked you, form the depth of my heart, to make this one healing quick. Make the bleeding stop quickly. Cocoon my heart and my soul to not feel the pain until it has healed. And I ask you by your loving mercy, to replace all that lost with what will bring joy and contentment and coolness of the eyes. Lets this test make me close to you Allah :'(

 

I need to learn more. I need to be better. Let go yang lepas. Dont ever force people to stay. 

Cheer upp sayang!

I took 4 days leave special for my mommy.

Kaklong nak kawin kad jemputan still banyak lagi tak distribute.

Sian mami banyak benda kena buat. I think i'm lucky to still have mami and grandmoms walaupun ayah dah takde. Sebab both of my grandma help us a lot. 

Nak harap kat anok2 memang idoklah nak ingat sangat salasilah sedara mara jauh ni. 

So setakat senangkan urusan mak bawak pergi sana sini beli barang barang sikit aku cuba lah sebanyak mungkin tuk tolong. 

Seronok jugak xceli sebab dr tak kenal langsung banyak jugak tahu sedara mara jauh ni. 

Nak harap hari raya je memang susah nak jumpa semua org. 

Macam macam kerenah along this session.

Bila turun pegi bersalam dengan org2 tua tu mesti (almost semua jugak lahh) akan tanya "yang nii ke bakal pengantin nyaaa?" "Dah yang nii bila nak langsunggg?" "Dah yg nii bakpe xlangsung sekaliii aje senanggg"

Macam macam soalan, aku senyum je lah jawab satu satu dalam gurauan. 

Tak ambik hati pun semua soalan tu. Sebab normal leww kan. Kalau kita pun kita akan tanya orang camtu. 

Tapi komen yang paling buat hati aku sayu bila org cakap,

"Kesian kat arwah xsempat nak tgok anak sulong dia naik pelamin" 

"tak sempat nak dapat menantu"

"Tak sempat nak tengok cucu"

Komen komen centu memang terus rasa ngaaaappp panas muka muka tahan je sebak lam hati. Kuatt kuaatt. Aku ngen mak pun balas dengan senyuman je hikhikk. 

Padahal lam hati kiteorang orang tak tahu, rindunyaaaa Allahurabbi. 

I missed you daddy. Weols semua rindu ayah sangaaat sangaaat. Lau arwah ada mesti ayah nangis hari akad nikah kaklong. Kompeeemmm! Huhu Semoga ayah tenang di sana. 😢😢😢 Macam tak caya pulak ayah dah takde. I still feel ur presence around me daddy. 

It has been a year for this experience.