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Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah.

My house's hall of fame has been completed now, with the four pictures of children Halimah and Abd Kadir, holded the scroll of education.

This is all, congratulations & thanks to you mak & ayah. I know we're not from rich family, even thru sick and pain, you're working hard on the day and night to pay our expenses. You strengthen your hearts to discpline us just to make sure we're becoming the good one, eventhou your hearts were hurt seeing us cry. Because you knew, that was for the best.

These are all we could pay right now, and I promise to be better. Thanks to you parents for guiding and lead us to the right path.

I'm missing my daddy so much now. And i know he'll be crying seeing the pictures of his children all holding the scroll.

I know, we'll never able to repay all of your sacrifications, but we promise to make our life better.
I love you mom & dad.

Congratulations again to my younger brother! You made it! You made it through your hardship and you should be proud! Be better and make a better life! I wish you can achieve your dreams in whatever thing you might do, and be a good child to the family ❤❤❤❤❤❤

This baby girl was so heavy! I cant hold her more than 10 minutes anymore.
Ruuuuinnnn my armm.

Love.
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Again, a month passed without realized. Fuhh fuhhh macam angin lalu sedar sedar dah 31 October. Hmm, 31 Oktober, Happy Birthday Daddy!!

A lot things happened in October, but i need to stick with the rule, list only 5 things, otherwise there will be only one summary post in every month :D

1. Mommy is staying here. (+Family Vacation)
I didnt have to balik kampung this month as my mom was staying here at my sister's house being a nanny to her spoil granddaughter. And I became a clingy daughter went there many times. 

2. Increment didnt turn out well.
....and my manager asked me when we were together in the room, "Aren't you happy?" "Yes, but this is not what I expected...I hope for more" I replied bravely, really cant hide my true inside feeling. I think my sacrification here should have a full stop. Ya Allah, help me for the better job!

3. Major Service to My Baby
I used a lot of money this month. But seriously, car's maintenance is higher than my body's need! But ya, no choice. I still need to change later to battery now asThank youly sounds bad. So bad. 

4. Finally I passed to donate my blood again!
Hahahaha, should i mention this? After i got positive dengue last year, finally this month, exactly a year, i passed to donate again! The needle was so big and scary. Many people refuse to do this, but nahh idk, i volunteered myself. I just like to challenge myself doing things i scare.

I need to capture this picture so that I can get the free gift.


5. Help me to decide!
My friends are inviting me to go holiday to Jogjakarta, which i budget will cost me around RM1.5k and even more- ya, i know myself well. I went to Phuket before with them. It's in April next year and I have to renew my car's insurance & roadtax on June. I keep thinking bout this for the very very long. For a poor like me, hahaha, 1.5k seem too big but experience is more expensive. Opportunity doesn't come twice.....but my mind keep remind me "measure your cloth with your own body". Is it okay if I don't follow right? Because if i suffer later to pay my expenses, nobody will help me right? *pat pat my back* :)

Wow the entry language is so so bad. I didnt manage to write well this time. I will improve again next time!

Till then. Thankbyou October! 
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Assalamualaikum

Hi Hello October! Alhamdulillah, I’m still breathing and so are you! Be good and always do good Noni! It’s 1030pm by now, a first day in new month of October and today was a super fun Sunday and now I’m lying down on my bed putting mask on my face writing up this post. Internally, I’m happy. -except to accept the fact tomorrow is Monday. Lazyyyy

I was doing well in September, no excessive tears, no accident, not get beaten, no bleeding, and looking forward to do better in October! Lets be good. *shaking hands* A lot of exciting things gonna be happen this month. Hopefully! My weekends schedule is fully planned. Lets see...Mommy is coming over for a few days tomorrow, Wina is getting married with her prince, a getaway plan with my girls, my younger brother’s convocation etc etc weheeeee gonna having fun and oh i just remember one more thing! and....it’s time for a major service to my baby. Moneyy moneyyyy where are youuu come to me please! 


Here is my 10 October advices toward myself!

💗 Dont rush. If there's something you'll miss, it will be the time you have now.

💗 Stop wasting time blaming yourself and blaming others. Things happen for a reason, even if the reason will make sense ten years down the road.

💗 Dont stay around the toxic people just because you're afraid of being alone. Being your own best friend has its perks, and there's no one else you'll spend more time with than yourself.

💗 Write, write and write. It will help you clear your mind and also distarct yourself when you're anxious. Writing will be your best friendd (Truuuuuuuuuuuue!)

💗 Learn all you can, and njoy all you want. Knowledge is the only thing truly yours.

💗 Be a friend you need, the one you want.

💗 Read all you can, you'll find words you cant say in the lip of others, you'll find sheter.

💗 Love yourself. That's the only love you'll have, constantly, and the only one that will stick with you even if you fail and fall.

💗 Learn from the past. Stop live in your past. Grow and move on.


 💗 Have Faith. Let your heart trust Allah alone to take care of the things you cannot understand.


 Hi October, I wish for something miracle and lets be good to each other. *Hugggggs*

 Till then. Love you. 

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Hi. Assalamualaikum.


Because I'm not really can blog for all of the times and talk about all of the things happened, so, I will make this entry as a compulsary in the end of every month. I will throwing back my mind for a little bit, listing only 5 things within that month to remind myself and look deeper into my life what was actually I did through out the current month...

Was it good? Or was it worse?

Did I improve?

So, here is 5 things what I did through out September...

1. Took an SPA online exam.
Idk my application form is still active. It was 2 years ago since my last updated. Sitting for this exam remind me well to the high school. My fav subject is always math but answering the questions again that night really make me very disappointed because i realized i forgot a lot of things! Mean median mode, speed, distribution, probability. Those are my fav! Wuu *crying a bucket*.
I aware that a hundred thousand people were sitting for this exam, so im not really putting a high hope. Anyway, goodluck for everyone! ;)

2. Having a joyful trip
Finally we did it! The trip was successful! We were touring back to ours degree's days and we were so happy. Two days and one night in Jengka. Pay a visited to elephant too! Hahaha. It was so fun to spend my time with my cheerful friends.

3. Lost 2kilos weight.
I was smiling brightly for a few dayssssss. Ya, i know, it's just 2kilos. Not a big deal for many people who can lose their weight easily. But for meeeeeeee, it took me several years to hear this news and i was celebrating it by a bucket of good foodssss as I was really in a good mood. And i guess i already gain 3kilos back. Hahahaha childish.


4. Spending time with BFF
My life wont be complete without you. Eventho it was just for a day, but we spent it fullfillness. I'm happy with the good food. (Wayang, picnic n shell out - gonna blog it soon)


5. 22 September. 
The date that i will never forget. It has been exactly 5 years since the last day i looked at my dad, since the day i kissed on his forehead. Rewind back to 5 years ago, and everything is still fresh in my head. Everything that was happened in 22 September, 5 years ago. I missed you dad. I missed you so much.

I've a lot more to tell. But stick to the rule, pick only 5 things, otherwise the post is meaningless as I will write a month journey story in one post. Hahaha.

Wish everyone a great day in October! 

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I seriously have a high desire to answer all of random life's questions. For me, it's challenging and quite fun. But honestly it ALWAYS ends up die in the draft. Always. So if anyone able to read this post, know that I'm wowing myself fuhhh finally i manage to publish this entry.


1. At what age do/did you wish to marry?
-i once wish to get married at 25 years old. And now i realize the wish doesn't come true. But it's okay. *pat pat my back*


2. What color do you like most?
  - I love red the most, but I'm not into one color for all the things. I choose color according to its preference. But yeah, red really spirit me up.


3. If you can have a superpower, what would it be?
- I love this question! i really hope this wish can comes true. I really wish i can read mind. I want to know what people really thinking bout me, and do they really speak the truth?


4. If you can travel anywhere in the world, where would you want to go?
- I twice submitted my name to go to Umrah with my mum. One in March and second for this coming December but both i get rejected. My heart broke a little. I really really wish to go there. Together with my mum. Inshaallah one fine day.


5. Which part of you that you love the most?
- As my friends always compliment my eyes, so i choose my eyes but i honestly appreciate every part of me, they're priceless.


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Happy Monday ^^

I took my day off today and went to Giant Hypermarket for buying some stuffs. On my way to the ATM, i saw a booth opened for free health screening. Excitedly, I took my steps toward it. It's a booth from National Kidney Foundation Malaysia. I love to try this. Okay, lets do it!


Registeration. 
I'm happy to see elders volunteerly come and take this test. It's happy to know they have an awareness towards their own health. 


This test consists of 6 checks. First was BMI ; Body Weight & Height. 
I smiled from ear to ear once the staff informed my weight. I lost 2kilo!!!!
Like seriously??!!! I have been waiting to heard this news for a long years. How little I ate before, my weight never going down. So, starting today I'm gonna fill in any form with this new body's weight value. Eventho yaa, I know I will gain weight in no times later. But whateva, I've a proof okay??
Today's test really made my day ^_________^

The second check was waist circumference. I got 77cm over the normal 80cm. 

The third was blood pressure test. 
With the glad heart, I happily announce that I'm free from high blood disease. Alhamdulillah. 
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It's 2127 right now, just arrive home from 99speedmart buying some things for home and myself. I'm in my car outside the house. Decide to stay a little bit longer here even I'm hungry (wait ya my dear stomach, i will feed you). Need some time to calm down.

It's raining outside, exactly represent my emotion right now.

Tears, won't you come out?

I'm too broke
I'm too down
I want to cry but its stuck inside.

Its hurt. Really hurt.
But I've no power to do anything.
Exactly no power.

I cant help but every words he said keep running inside my head. It's heavy. I want to move on but shit man time doesn't heal me. Really suck.

Can anyone tell me how come people move on easily?
I need that power. I want to bleach and vanish my mind. Free from his words and memories. Everything.

Decided to temporary delete my Instagram. 
Really need to hibernate. 

God, help me.

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You know what is the most annoying s*ckg thing to me?
When you are so tired and dream to sleep longer but you just cant. 
I always having this problem!! 
*cryingggg*

I slept at 1am last night and I currently on my red-cycle period, wishing to wake up at 8am.
But once my eyes are wide open at 6am, there's no more sleeping time. 
Dear eyes, sleeeppp sleeeppp. 
Dear mind, what are you messy thinking about? 
We have a lot things to do today at the office.
 Lets rest more while we've a chance. Ahh. Always.

Happy Friday btw! 
Cant wait for the long break and meet my family tomorrow! 

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Look. What is that.


It's me, holding a cup of instant noodle outside of house. At Night.

It's 2236pm by now. Writing this with my back rests heavenly on bed (finaaaaallyyy), towel twists on my head and earphone stucks in my ears. River of tears by Alessandra Cara play in the background. For the thousand times i keep repeat that song today. I'm just finished enjoying 15 minutes of cold shower after coming home late from the office. My eyes are about to close.


I'm tired.


For the first time, i wish time could ticking slower during the office hour. This is so ridiculous for me. Short while ago, when I saw Keith walk passed me with the bag and ready to leave the office, I was wondering why he is going back too early. Then I tot 'oh maybe he has urgent'. And suddenly everyone was cleaning up the table and picking up their bag, I was like 'heyy waitt where are you guys going? Oh what? it's already 530pm??!'

For the God's sake, I still have a lot things to do. And for the first time being, i wish lets it be 3pm again.

Crazy!
Nobody ever wishes that okay!!

Actually, this month is the shortest working days i gonna have. I only work for 13 days instead of 23 days. Hehehehehehe. Had a week of MC, a day of EL, 2 days of public leave and gonna have 3 days of AL for Hari Raya Haji later. So all of my wooorrrrksssss have to be done before this Friday in which I've 3 days left.

So i need to sacrifice myself to stay back now.

Actually, the point I wanna highlight here is I'm so tired and i'm going to sleep now in a couple of minutes with the empty stomach again. So that instant noodle in the picture? I don't like instant noodle, and it has been a-very-long-time-ago since i ate it. I just bought it because i feel guilty to my stomach as I've nothing to offer. Yeah i wont eat it.  I'm a lil bit disappointed now because i promised myself i wont skip dinner anymore. But sleeping seem more delicious right now.

Biane.

*************************************************************************


Damnnnn. Woke up at 3 and my stomach hurt again! 
Arghhhhh. Cant sleep!

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0140AM

For past a year, sleeping has been my favourite thing as it fades the sorrow and cures my heart.
I find peace in sleep and a regrettion once I wake up.

I should be sleeping right now but this heart refuses to and here I am still lingering my fingers, touching letters at this blank screen.

Keep staring at all of photos again and again.
How beautiful it was and how painful it becomes.

Setiap yang hadir, bukan sia sia.
Dan setiap yang pergi, bukan tanpa hikmah.
Walau dalam mana pun luka yang ditinggal,
Pasti itu yang terbaik.
Setiap inci yang terjadi dalam hidup telah Allah rencanakan sempurna tanpa cela.

Ya Allah,
izinkan air mata ini jatuh saat duka,
namun jangan biarkan bibir ini merungut tanda tiada redha.

Allah jika ini satu ujian, terus kuatkan aku, tahan aku dari rebah,
pimpin aku dari terus ke lorong yang salah.
Cukup lah sekali moga tiada lagi.

A friend tagged me on this ;


Dont wait for someone to tell youwho you are and what you are
or what you supposed to be.
Its should not be heal because somebody else likes you..
It should be heal because you believe something good about yourself.
What others think of you should not be matter so much.

Focus on yourself,
on improving yourself...
Be the best you can be!

Thanks Kak Dila

Selamat malam sayang.

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It has been threee dayssss since i keep repeating to this songgg.
Why dearrrrr whyyyyyy???!!


Maybe it just brings so many memories but who caressss
Oh God please bless me. 


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Hawa was sending me home and we were out for late lunch.

And in the car ;

"Noni, noni ade masalah?"

"Hahhh? Bakpee?"

"Hawa tengok Noni macam rusing je dari tadi, macam thinking of something..."

"Hmm...?"

"Macam tadi kalau aku biar je mu sorang, aku drive je, mu macam di awan-awanan...termenung jauh fikirkan something, you look worried and sedih..."

"....it has been a year Hawa...." I Tried to draw a fake smile. It has been a year Hawa since i drown with these memories in my head, how to let it go?....i keep it to myself.

I awared that I was being rush. Eat rush & pay rush..Idk but I just thinking 'you should be fast Hawa or if not you be stuck in the traffic jam by 5pm.' But I just keep that words in my head.

Hell Noniiii! Wake uppppp.

Or maybe I'm just tired 6 hours in the car or suddenly homesick after being 6 hours away from home. 

Or maybe im still not fully recovery.

phewww -.-' lets take a rest.


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After 15 days of break, it feels so good to be at this spot again!!!!


Semoga Tuhan lembutkan balik hati ini.

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Usually after cleaning up myself, break-fasting, perform Maghrib prayer, i manage to arrive 15 minutes early at Masjid Bulat before Adzan Isyak. Finding a spot, perform Sunat prayer and catch a few minutes to recite AlQuran.

I guess my voice is too loud which can be heard by 4meter circumferences people around me. Frankly speaking, I dont know how to keep it low. Wuwuwuwu... Yesterday, while recite, a woman came and sat beside me, she was wearing a black telekung. I turned my head to her and draw a friendly smile. She is a foreigner! She sat very close to me-very close, opened her ears to my voice and her eyes on my reading. After I finished one line without reading-error she said 'good' and whenever I pronounced it wrongs she will right me rightaway. But the session only last for 5 minutes because it was already time for Isyak prayer.

I feel so good and making an intention to meet her again today. I will find her, sit beside her and will ask for her guide again. Hahaha tak malu. But it's only a hope that will not comes true. I'm in my red phase again. What a waste!


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